My parents don’t accept me. How am I supposed to live with this?
Mom made me see a doctor and now they're saying I have asperger's. I've always known that I was different, but now I feel like everything I thought I knew about myself is being denied. I've been struggling with my gender identity since school. The earliest wishes to be a girl that I remember are from age 9! I’ve been absolutely sure lately I’m a transgender girl, and I’ve finally spoken about it with my parents! My dad said I’d be a repulsive girl, and my mother insisted I’d always been autistic... And now she has a piece of paper with that diagnosis to back it up, and whenever I try to talk to her she says that my feelings about gender are just another one of my "obsessions", or "hyper-fixations" as the doctor called it. When I finally came out as a transgender girl to some of my friends, I thought I had found some peace. I was going to start HRT end of this year or early 2025 (depending on my finances), been saving money for it, since my dad definitely won’t pay. I’m scared. I don't want my parents to see me as some manic confused guy! I know who I am, and it's not just some phase or fixation... But my mom keeps insisting that I'm a boy with asperger's, and it's making me feel like a fake. I hoped so much she would support my transition. How do I make her see that my gender identity is fundamentally me and not just some symptom? I feel like she's trying to erase a part of me that I've fought so hard to understand. It's frustrating and it hurts so bad. She used to be my friend, she should be on my side. If only she’d just listen to me and try to understand instead of fitting me into a box that doesn't feel right. The hell do I do?
