hello there,
i wanted to know if y'all ever faced this feeling:
you invested so much energy in a passion that helped you, but it actually also had bring you a lot of issues that impacted your health. would you still keep it because of the many years you poured in it and have hopes, or give up because of disappointements and protect your mental?
to explain my case, this passion revealed a creative side from me in art, writing, costumes, confidence in my appearance etc. and thanks to that i gained opportunities and "kind of fame" at some moment.
but the thing is, it's also because i entered this community i met people that abused me, sabotaged me, and i'm now diagnosed with depression, take antidepressants and i won't tell more but you can guess what is it when you don't wanna fight anymore for your life.
i only poured all my love into that, it's not just an interest, all my life revolved around it. i feel it's too late to start over with something else, i feel i lost years if i abandon it, but i don't know what to gain more from it now that people destroyed my status. on one hand i would never have meet such an enjoyable interest that gave me popularity but also i knew i would have never meet these people.
maybe the best is to enjoy it but far from the fandom side but i still have this fomo thingy.