I've been a fan of anime porn (hentai) since my early teens, before it was trending. I’m 18 now, and to me, it's so much more than just a form of entertainment. It's my way of escaping into a world where everything is perfect and beautiful. I know a lot of people don't understand it, but to me, it's so much better than real porn. In real porn, there are often people forced into it, whether through sex trafficking, prostitution, or other means, and that's just not something I want to support. With anime porn, it's all fictional, so no one is getting hurt.
There’s just one thing that worries me. I used to be into real nudes too (only photos), but now I feel attracted to anime characters. It's like my brain has been rewired to find only their bodies appealing. The very idea of touching somebody naked repulses me. I don't want to be this way, but I can't help it. I'm afraid that real girls won't attract me anymore. I know this is a problem, OK? I want to be able to have real relationships, but I feel like my addiction to anime porn has changed my expectations. Real girls are not hot. Maybe I’m asexual? I worry that I won't be able to have a healthy relationship or intimacy with a real person. I wish there was a way for me to find a balance and enjoy both real and fictional sex without feeling repulsed. I want to appreciate being around real people without feeling like they don't measure up to the perfection of anime characters. How do I go back to finding regular women attractive? I feel lost and unsure how to move forward.
