Codependency on a partner but no partner

I realize all my life I have been single a good portion of my life and can’t find the right one. I chase and get disappointed with most are just sex, one night stands or friends with benefits. Long distance relationships I found just sex when responsive most. What I want is trust, love, commitment and communication, my longest physical relationship was toxic and was unhappy not caring enough when I put it in my all. What I want is a relationship turn into marriage and start a family due my family having addictions and haven’t talk in years best I stay away. I want family connection and have that back. I chase and get disappointed, feel codependent on the other for communication only and built a relationship takes time but goes to sex all the time I cut it off. I want to love and be loved. Never found it and gets very lonely I lm on autopilot not living life, I say to myself what’s wrong with me why can’t I find the right one finally be happy, a friend said time to accept its not in the cards for u just focus on yourself. U will be alot happy and if the right one comes along right time happen or not. Once I meet someone new I put it in my all and it’s all I think about like it’s a God to me, cause I don’t wanna be lonely anymore. It’s lets me to toxic person talking to exes online, dating apps and going out at bars. I self neglect myself health, mental wise, I don’t know if it’s my short attention span or I’m lazy do the work to love myself I can’t stick to it only when get crushed by a guy I self care for little while then loneliness comes in crushed everything go gd k to toxic behaviour and in a struck repeated cycle. His do I get help for this? I don’t want to be codependent on others anymore . I just wanna live life again should I accept I never find the right one for me