I don't know why i am even writing this,
i have been thinking about ending it
not because i'm sad or depressed or tired
it's just logically the best thing to do
i don't have the energy to live anymore
and i repeat i am not even sad or feel anything i feel normal
i graduated high school this year and i have nothing to be sad about
my grades are high, i have a girlfriend,i have a job and i have good friends
maybe i am being greedy? i just cant undrestand why do i want to end it
it's like i just want to stop
like enough i don't want to do anyting anymore
i don't get if i'm too selfaware or i am gaslighting myself into thinking that there is nothing wrong
i'm not sure
i've never been ti a therapist before
my parents never believed in them and always told me that i shoud rely on myself to be better
and should focus on the positive like the good stuff about my life
i know the good and the bad and i am okay with them
but still i just feel like i want it to be over, i don't want to try anymore that's it
