Escape from a non-ideal family.

Lately, I don't know what I'm doing married. I feel like a stranger in my family, the whole environment is annoying. I look at my husband and don't understand how I could marry him...I am disoriented in my family...It's like I woke up from a dream.... I used to sleep ...now, I saw my husband...a passive man who doesn't need anything...he gets little money, doesn't strive anywhere and spends a lot of time on the internet...My child also annoys me: no order, no achievements.... the apartment is terrible... the city's a shithole. What am I doing here? How did I get here? I want to run... somewhere in my house. A beautiful, clean home, where my husband is a leader and I'm driven to succeed. I can't go anywhere on my own, and my husband won't pull me. I'm annoyed by the garbage at home, even the fact that my husband put a mug in the wrong place. The child does not strive for excellent grades. I want everything to be perfect. The best city, a very big salary, beautiful people in buses and subways, a perfect apartment, an excellent child, a perfect husband .... Where to run and where to look for the perfect place? How to make the world be perfect? I realize that there is no such thing as perfect...but I so want everything new...and so I secretly packed my bags and am leaving everyone in the family. yes, I'm leaving a non-perfect family ...I'm going to meet my ideal, different country, great conditions. And the loser husband can stay in his hole. When I get settled, I'll take the baby. I don't know, I think I'm doing something wrong, but this is an escape from the family, which arose spontaneously ... maybe it's schizophrenia