after flying to another planet, I can't find myself.

I want to share my weird feelings. I've been working a lot lately, and I'm just tired. And during the period when I already felt tired, I couldn't rest. I was constantly getting calls from work, asking for something...I owed something..... I was worried all the time. I wanted to get the anxiety out of my chest. But it wouldn't go away. At some point I "floated" and did everything automatically. Then I started to feel like I was in a fog. I just floated, and managed to be in the "working moment" for periods of time. The feeling of "fog" bothered me, but it was not relieved by anything. I drank coffee, it didn't help. Some days I started to feel "split", no, "broken into many pieces". One of the pieces was "me," another was "the strict man," and there were other pieces that I didn't know, new pieces that clearly felt like strangers. I carefully tried to look adequate at work. But I started to feel like I was being looked at the wrong way. I felt like they thought I was weird. I stopped feeling supported. I looked around at other people. It became difficult for me to concentrate on the documents. Which I complained to my friend about. She suggested a "drink of wine." She explained that it was a "cure for everything". I agreed out of desperation. We had a few drinks. My eyes started spinning. I tried to stop it. Then I felt like I was flying. It seemed to me that my body separated and flew somewhere...I traveled through planets and worlds. I don't remember a lot of things. I remember the face of the god who told me to come back. I woke up in the hospital, and I heard a lot of old things about myself. I think I'm going crazy... after my trip to the planets inside, I don't feel like myself anymore. How do I get myself back?