Recently, I've noticed I am unable to feel my body and understand what is going on. Am I trembling? Is my hearbeat faster? Do I want to cry? What is my body trying to tell me?
Every time I feel disapointed, sad, angry, I feel completely overwhelmed. It is as if my body treats them all the same. I can't even describe the feeling properly. Is it anxiety? A panic attack? I never felt different than that, and that makes it harder. I was abandoned as a baby and have probably lived my whole life reacting like this.
I feel the lack of understanding on how my body reacts makes me more prone to stay in situations that are slowly destroying me, and also explains my history of multiple traumatic experiences during my life.
I understand this is the first part of the therapy for CPTSD. However, when I said that to my psychologist, asking forguidance on how to improve that, she told me "I can't help you feel, you just need to alow yourself to do it." No tips and no recommendations of activities that will help me connect to the body and what feelings it is trying to communicate.
What can I do to help with that in particular?
