normal is not the right word for it. I self-diagnose as having borderline personality disorder, and it has made it impossible for me to keep any serious relationships, or even friendships. My whole life I’ve struggled with feeling out of order and overwhelmed with emotions, being impulsive and overly fragile at the same time. I never knew what it could be, until I started reading mental health forums, and I knew I had BPD right away. Feeling alone... Emotions for someone that are always out of proportion. Impulsive reactions… I’ve been restless in all my relationships, and I always ended up blocking my partners and friends and ruining it all. I then suffer for months and painfully put myself together bit by bit... Now I haven’t been in any relationship for almost two years, and it’s so peaceful. Without those types of strong emotional connections I don’t feel uncontrolable waves of anger or jealousy. I can live a normal life. Isn’t it strange? I wonder if any other illness is less intense when you’re single?
I’ve been in an abusive relationship during my teenage years, which I believe was the root of my panic disorder. It built gradually over the years, and at first I didn’t take it for what it was. I ...
So first things, This will be really long. I am really sorry about that and will be really thankfull if someone know the answer to my problem.
My name is Aldi, you can call me sma...
THIS MUST SEEM TOO LONG TO READ AND WILL UNDERSTAND IF ANYONE DON'T WANT TO READ IT BUT I THOUGHT OF SHARING IT. IF YOU READ TILL END THEN I AM ALREADY VERY THANKFUL TO YOU.
Everyone talks about the loneliness that comes with being single but never the loneliness that comes with bettering yourself. I’ve been in therapy and support workshops for 2 years, doing self-help...
