i'm so dumb and you can judge me all you want . i deserve it. my best friend invited me to her birthday party last weekend. she was super excited about it and had been planning it for weeks. i promised her i'd be there no matter what. the day of the party came, my ex called me out of the blue. we broke up a few months ago, and it was really hard on me. he said he wanted to talk and sort things out. i knew i should've said no and gone to the party instead, but i couldn't help myself. i thought i would go meet him and then go to the party, so i agreed to meet him
as a result of that stupid decision i ended up spending hours talking with my ex and completely missed my friend's party. i didn't even text her to say i couldn't make it. i just... forgot. i was so caught up in my own drama that i let my best friend down on her special day. when i realized what i'd done, i felt terrible. i tried calling her the next day, but she wouldn't pick up. i sent her messages apologizing, but she left me on read
i know i messed up big time. she has always been there for me, especially when i was going through my breakup. she listened to me cry for hours and helped me get back on my feet. and how did i repay her? by ditching her on her birthday for the guy who broke my heart
i feel like the worst friend ever. i can't stop thinking about how hurt and disappointed she must be. i want to make things right, but i don't know how. should i give her space? should i keep trying to reach out? i'm so confused and upset with myself
i know i made a huge mistake. i've always tried to be there for my friends. i'm scared i might lose my best friend over this stupid decision. is there really a way of fixing this?
