Plzzzzzz help me to find a solution ππππππππ
My story is little bit weird and strange.
I am a engineering student from India pursuing btech in computer science and it's my 2nd year started but I am not able to go the lectures bcoz i reach late in the college everyday and only from 5 to 15 mins but I think if I go to the the profesors will shout at me and everyone or somebody will make fun of me but I haven't seen the profesors yet and I don't know them and their nature it's my anxiety forcing me to do this and my parents thinking that I m attending lectures regularly and I can't stay at home bcoz my parents didn't let me do to stay at home they are strict in this and of course they had to be but it's getting on my nerves when I think my parents are paying lakhs of rupees in my course and I m doing this and they have much stress in their life and I can't give them one.
Also I have 7 back logs means I am fail in seven subjects in first year bcoz the stress in my head can't make me to studyand all my friends have cleared their backlogs in my whole class i m the only that have this much back papers.
i feel very bad for my parents they have much expectations from me that I will be the one who will take care of my family with a high payment job and I am elder girl compared to my siblings .
The 2nd problem is of my classmates There are so many students in the class but I have none of the friend whom I will share my emotions and feelings to and no one one wants to be my friend bcoz i am not that talkative type girl and is boring I can't able to participate in competitions bcoz I have a social anxiety. The day before yesterday I just stayed for one and half hour in the washroom to hide from the profesors I wish this should get end.
I just want to see my parents happy and want to keep them happy.
Pllzzzzzz give me the solutions to keep my anxiety calm and to clear my backlogs smoothly.
At the whole night i was just crying and crying and now too
Pllzzzzzzzzzzz somebody help me πππππππππππππππππππ
