Yeah!! Am 25 and am in a healthy relationship, it's been 2 yrs now and am genuinely happy. He always take good care of me. He makes me happy. He makes me smile effortlessly. He feeds me. He protects me. He care for me. It's all good actually. Am so crazy about him
But sometimes it's hard you know. We won't fight a lot. But sometimes we do. At that time, I wanted to talk and express myself. Expressing my inner feelings makes me feel so much better instead of holding it in deep! But every time while I try do that I end up being a bad person. But 99% I won't do any bad or wrong thing fa sure.. then I dk why I end up being a bad person like that. It makes me feel useless. I always put myself behind to make him happy. I always priorities him. But still why I end up being a bad person, why am not enough, why I can't make him understand that all I need is reassurance and safe space to open up myself. Is this too much ask.. why he can't understand instead leaving me, instead of shouting at me he can just hug me and talk to me normally. Why he can't understand that all am needing is his comforting guesters, words actions, ect.
Instead of asking me where you wanna go.. I want him to make plans for me. I wanted him to say. Hey see this I saw this place while scrolling insta feeds or whatever or else there is an amazing place over there we are going there on this weekend. Why he can't make a happy plan for me?? Is this too much to ask..???
I always concerned about his health, I wanted the same! I wanted him to take me to the hospital. Sometimes he does. Sometimes he won't. There is a small prblm in my body that need immediate doctor consultation but he told multiple times that I need to see a doctor. But he never ordered or take me to the hospital for that particular reason. There is always an excuse for not being done. Why he can't take me to the hospital if it's not emergency?? Is this too much to ask?
I want him to take care of me !! He really does!! But am a stubborn kid.. I wanted a little more! Is this too much to ask..
Asking little more care, attention, love, craziness, passionate, kind gesture, love language, being cliche!!
Is this too much to ask??
Am I not worthy
Am I not deserving
Am I not enough
Why can't i live a normal like??
Why there is always so much pressure on me??
Why should I always be mature??
Why Should I always need to take responsibility??
Why I can't act silly??
