that's crazy, my sister portrays my mom as a cool person to her friends, and they also appreciate her public personnality, i know the real her, my friends know how abusive she is, some of them even got the same mom that's why they understand. but you know i feel like am i imagining things? how can we have such a different experience of a parent? is it something relatable to first born daughters?
tomorrow i'll have to go to a show with my mom, my cousin and a friend of my sister. both are so happy to see her, and i'm afraid and already frustrated. i'm afraid to see my mom claim some qualities she doesn't have in front of them and me not being able to let this lie pass and explode in front of everyone and appear like the crazy one. i'm afraid she would humiliate me in front of others to crack some jokes and i would be angry but she will play victim for her to be the comforted one (her fav tactic the white woman tears, while i'm a poc).
i already wanna cry just thinking about this, to show y'all how evil she can be, earlier this morning i told her yesterday night my back hurt so much i was about to fall on the floor, i was really afraid to be stuck or break something. she looked at me in the eyes, and went back laughing at her screen. then she said "oh i'm not laughing at you but i did a great score!" (talking about a game she is obsessed with, she always ignores me because her phone is first) she said that thinking i would let pass because oh fine she didn't mock me, lmao well you still didn't show any support? i waited? and nothing. she just said "it remind me when i had back pain" everytime i express my feels it's me me me, you know it's not the first time she did that, last time i injured my knee by falling and screaming, the kind of sound you can hear, she ignored because she was on her phone, and when i told her, same story. when i told her i was being cyberharassed she rolled her eyes and said how tired she was to clean the house. disgusting person.
you know what else she did? later she proposed me to sat on a chair and when i was on the process of sitting i felt the chair moving, she was pulling it behind, i freaked out i could have fall and break the part of my back that i told her hurt earlier, i looked at her shocked she laughed???? what's so funny about trying to injure your child??? this lady want my death???
i feel i'm going crazy no one is seeing the truth about her
