I think its finally time to open up about this

i met someone online 9 months ago. after 2 months of constantly talking and laughing together, we started dating. we were dating online for 6 months and things were so great. yeah, we had our fights but the moment we decided to finally meet in real life, all the problems went away. we both fell in love again, even stronger this time. i wasnt allowed to go and meet this guy (by my mom) so after a lot of stressful moments, i finally had to lie to her and went to meet him. the saddest part is, im like imprisoned in my own house. im not allowed to use uber, go out with friends, go to a friends house or literally do anything like a normal teenager would. i turned 19 a few days ago, and sadly this is my life. after i met him, me and him, we were both so sure for each other (even tho we always were). going long distance again was so difficult after he made so many efforts to come see me from another city. after a few days of finally meeting him, yesterday, i built up the courage to be honest and tell my mom. but i messed up, probably? she got super dramatic about it insulted me so much, and told me that i will NEVER meet him again. she said super bad things about him. even mocked the fact that he came only to meet me. she insulted me so much that i ended up crying all night. my eyes are still swollen, heart is still broken. she told me to never trust that guy. made assumptions about him that i met him on facebook and all this love story is bullshit. compared me to other girls and shattered my self worth. i told him everything. he comforted me so much, every single second i cried my heart to him, he comforted me. told me wed always stay together and figure it out together. his comfort and love is the last string im holding on to. ive zero friends and the saddest part is not knowing when am i going to see him again? did i deserve all this? i fought for him. i talked back. because i trust him. i know what we have is real. but i feel so tired. and hurt of everything i was told. i dont know how to move on, how to digest a this. am i even going to forget this? what crime did i commit to meet him. what did i do to be told that he will poison my food and do super bad things to me. what did i do to deserve all this?