I used to see one of my colleagues. This was the first time I had ever been in a same-sex relationship and it was difficult for me to continue so I had broken up. A month and a half later we were assigned on a project together and we were forced to become room mates. Given the past we had, it was rather awkward until both of us sat and a clear conversation. They told me that it was just a fling and they were indeed straight and didn't have any feelings for me so it was okay for me to be normal with her. One thing led to another and we were crossing the boundaries of normal friends, a lot cuddling ensued and flirting. There were even times they had pushed me against the wall and threatened to kiss me. I took it in good fun because we used to do this before. Until one night we were cuddling and and they told that they still loved me.

Cut to one night they were about to kiss me until I moved away, and then they dared me that i'll never be able to kiss them because I am too arrogant. In that moment of weakness I kissed them, and immediately regretted it. they saw the regret on my face and kissed and told now we are even. since they kissed me unceremoniously a couple of times. they are someone I can't say no to. Later part of the tour I gave in to my temptation but had repeatedly asked them if they were sure. I distinctively asked them that because I didn't want them to hurt again. We were in cloud nine having the best time of our lives. The tour ended we came to our respective homes, which is very far by the way. Suddenly their texts went dry and I didn't like it. Thus, I confronted them and they said this is not the right time and we should break up but lets be friends.

My problem here is we were very good friends and they were the one who instigated the whole thing, I had asked them repeatedly because I knew I was emotionally invested in them. We were about to make love and I had asked them, 'are you sure you won't regret it?'. They said no and they said they loved me. Just after a week of intense lovemaking they suddenly became unsure about their intentions. now they expect me to be the responsible adult and deal with it while being good friends with them.

the worst part I believe is that they gave me numerous bullshit reasons, which make no sense and that they wanna be with me but can't because this is not the right time.

Hi everyone!

My name is Kimberly, I am 27 years of age, and I have come to terms with the Story God is writing where my name is concerned.

For the past 27 years life has really been a journey for my, especially with my relationship with God, this supernatural being who shows me that my emotions are being manipulated for him to write the story he ordained for me before conception. I only came to terms with what has been happening after the fact that God revealed it to me. It's really a relationship where I mimic how he wants me to feel and what he wants me to say and do in order to carry his story forward, yes I've been raped, got into fights, arguments, partying, diseases the whole negative works. But I've also felt happiness, love, peace, kindness and the whole positive works. God has been working really hard to give me the balance his will for my life deserves. He is an extreme powerful and well put together God, with that being said he designed this world in a way where he can write dimension of stories and only reveal what he wants his characters to see at that particular time. And because he is the Big, Amazing, Supreme God aka Author, it makes us look at people/humans in either a good or bad image; when in fact it is him working through everyone to accomplish his Will. We are just an embodiment of his words, he is the pen and we are the paper. So we can cry, steal, curse, smile, hug, kiss, kill. God knows exactly what he is doing and us knowing the truth would not stop what he has already plan from going forward.

Anyhow I shared this within this community because my friends and family think I'm mentally ill for saying what I mentioned above. But I want to say MY truth and not what PEOPLE want me to say. This is the stage of my story that I have reached and I'm proud about it. Thanks for listening! :) <3

hello, my question is in the topic.

A little backstory. I’m 18 and I’ve been interested in girls since 14. I grew up in a small town, my family are very religious. My first kiss was with a boy, I simply didn’t dare to approach a girl. I dated a guy for a couple of years, then when we finally broke up and I stayed single for a while, I rediscovered my interest in women, and I met Mary. She’s absolutely gorgeous, three years older than me and has always been lesbian. When we started dating, it was like I was finally myself. The emotions were incredible, like I’ve never felt before. However, when we started being intimate, every time we tried, my mind froze, panicking. My partner is openly sexual and has no taboos. I am the opposite. I’m extremely anxious and shy about it. The few times I was able to cope with my anxiety, I acted very quickly and was unable to relax. Every time I’m unprepared or feel like we will be seen, I reject her out of anxiety, and then feel ashamed and guilty about it. Therapy was not helpful. I’m desperate. I don’t want my partner to think I’m disinterested and break up with me. Please share any wisdom you have

How do I know if I have a bpd? I can't do an appointment with a health professional because my family doesn't know about it, they won't take it seriously and just tell me that I'm being dramatic, anyway, I researched about it and also watched videos with people diagnosed with the same disorder and I have most of the symptoms that they had/have. Is it possible that I also have it? Although if I am, I won't be shocked, but I want to make sure.