At times you have to stand by your ground dear, make the right choices and don't waste time trying to prove your relevance to others..
@samuel im actualy the last person who tries to prove himself to others, in the contrary i dont care what people think or say abt me, even in my family i dont try at all i just be myself i dont fake so can poeple love me, my sister on the other hand shes the one who tries so hard to prove that she is the good person, maybe cuz i am nonchalant thats why she gets her way to make me miserable in the family and with others. And its hard to make right choices while you're confused and lost and under negative pressure.
@isabelle48506 between you and her who is older?
@samuel i am 1 year older then her and yet she looks older then me and acts like shes the bigger and the clever one in us while shes not
@isabelle48506 you see the problem is that you have also built a very strong hatred attitude against her..the fact that she is younger gives her an express ticket to 'baby' treatment from your parent... However, you have to show a positive attitude towards building your own life without or without them, purpose what you want in life, make baby steps towards an established life...come up with ideas that would keep you occupied. Let your successful life later be used as your defense line...
@samuel i dont hate her at all i am mad at her for so many things she did to me, she wants me to hate her by her attitude, all i can do is isolate myself from her because getting close to her only make things worst, and the fact that my mother takes her side and blame me for everything and being mean to me am her daughter too she shouldnt take sides here, makes me even angrier, in general my environemenr is so toxic for my mental health and they only make my depression worst and lost, i wish it was easy to keep myself occupied and get a successful life while dealing with depression..
@isabelle48506 We both agree 2 wrongs don't make a right, the fact that your relationship with momma and your sibling is in the woods does not change the fact that you are part of that family, you are part of them...at times we have to get to our lowest in order to bounce back on our feet and even to greater heights....take heart...I would have wanted to share much with you but this platform is public hence can't share a few personal details..you can get me on samuelkinyanjui117@gmail.com for better and further assistance...
@isabelle48506 At peace?
@samuel all i think about rn is how to kill myself quickly without pain at the same time i dont wanna go to hell if i killed myself , so to rest in peace will be the best peace i will ever have, its my only way to end this miserable life
@isabelle48506 before you get to that point kindly dm me via my email samuelkinyanjui117@gmail.com
Hello!
The first thing I’d like to draw your attention to is that depression can be diagnosed only by a licensed therapist. Therefore, do not drive yourself into the framework of this disease, perhaps everything is not so bad as it seems.
Secondly, you write about “failing to achieve your goals”. Indeed, such experiences occur in many young men and women aged 25-30. I don’t know if it’s any comfort, but this is one of the natural age crises.
A little earlier, around the age of 20, you probably had certain expectations about the future. But for some reason they were not met, that is why you feel overwhelmed. But, as I said, this stage is normal. Your main task now is to understand what you really want. What are your goals and objectives? The image of an ideal life you had before may not be actually yours. Sometimes we do not follow our own goals and desires, but those imposed from the outside. Right now, listen to yourself and try to understand what you want from life and write down one goal in each sphere of life (work, relationships, friends, hobbies, health, etc.).
To move towards goals, you need energy, an internal resource, which you currently have little. Therefore, first of all, it is important to bring yourself into a normal physical and emotional state. To do this, find a job that gives you pleasure. It could be anything: from watching movies to creating 3d models. Try to give it at least 30 minutes every day. I also recommend starting to communicate with friends again - this will give you not only positive emotions, but also the opportunity to receive support.
Imagine that your life is a multi-storey building that collapsed due to a design error. Now on the same foundation you have to create a new, more reliable and stable structure.
Good luck in creating your new life!