I'm a serious adult, I'm over 40 years old..... And then I fell in love like a young man. I can't say I'm happy. I'm angry! Why should I do this now? And I suddenly fell in love with a young girl. That's how it happens. I'm shocked at myself.
I am not alone, I have been living with my wife for a long time. She is a good woman, the mother of my children. I have confidence in her. I'm not going to leave, and I wasn't planning to look for a woman. And then love happened. I am tormented, all the time thinking about my feelings and I am torn from wanting to see the girl and run away from her.
Yeah, our sex life with my wife is pretty low key. And I really want to spend time with the girl I'm in love with. But I'm not interested in her as a person. She's primitive, she's a child. And it makes me feel bad
She's 24 years old, but she's like a child. She wants laughter, presents, and fun. She says such stupid things! How could I, so smart, like this....
That's exactly the thought that keeps me going.... At night, too. I call myself an old fool. And I write to my girl. And I think I'm going crazy. Love at that age is crazy and stupid...
