I feel uncomfortable when people stare at me, whether it be in a crowd or among my classmates. Public speaking makes me nervous and I struggle with reporting or giving oral presentations. In the past, I was bullied and ridiculed by people who I thought were my friends. One particular comment that still haunts me is when someone called me "low IQ" just because I didn't give them what they wanted. This hurtful remark caused me to lose confidence in myself and now I struggle to concentrate, memorize, and analyze lessons at university. I fear that these words still affect me today, as they constantly play back in my head when I am reading or taking a quiz or test.
Salutations and apologies for this terrible title, but to simplify everything - that's what I truly feel from day to day basis, but not quite that, so let me explain.
It's honestly weird. I a...
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I feel like I'm already dead. I have a lot of responsibilities and me not being myself is affecting it. I hate myself. I want to kill myself and sometimes get the urge to kill my roommate. She is t...
I am always angry and get childhood flashbacks of my parents beating me, I was not smart during my childhood, not good at studies, my mother compared me with other kids, she beat me with wires, i h...
