after being tormented my body faced changes. when i was abused by 3 ppl, before and when i cut them off and was relieved i lost a lot of weight along the way, my bmi was under normal but i didn't even realize, it's like as my body was in constant tension as if i was running non stop and i was never sick because of a constant hypervigilant state.
but then i faced another type of traumatic event, and this one is different. bullies made me lose one of my biggest dream by pure jealousy, this is different than escaping someone and being free, this is losing hope.
the moment i realized it was over for me to have opportunities due to this injustice my body reacted in a harsh way.
i gained 10kg in a week which is crazy, i have a lot of fat around belly and face is puffy. i realized it's cortisol body due to stress, but it's not the only thing stress provoked.
i usually always have my periods on exact time like clockwork even if i don't take any pills, and since now these last month i was 20days late, because my period were supposed to arrive at a stressful moment for me (an event i could possibly meet my abuser) so it's like my body sent a signal i wasn't in a good state to make me have my period, i know it can be common for some, but it was the very first time for me in 20years of menstruations.
and second thing, i never get sick unless one time every 3 year because of sudden weather change between two days for example. but now as if i abandoned mentally, i end sick EVERY DAMN MONTH. it started after the gain weight, if i have a long period of stress (rush at work for example) and right after i have some days to rest or holidays i will definitely end sick the very fist day of these vacations. as if my body used all its energy for the rush and now it doesn't have any to stay good when i think i can relax. and moreover i have a way harder time to recover, usually in 3 days after lots of meds i'm okay, today it's the 3 day and i'm shaking i'm exhausted even if it's just a common cold.
it's crazy how an emotional schock can cause this, is there a word for this syndrom?
