I'm anxious. Friday is my first time flying on a plane. Yeah, in 27 years, it's the first time. I'm so scared. My whole life I've been dragging this moment away. I've been reading about airplane disasters all day. I know what to do in an emergency on land and in the water, but the sky? What could I possibly do? I just imagine falling and knowing it's the end of my life. That possibility is so frightening. I'm sure everyone is afraid of flying, just some are more adapted than others. How can you not be afraid of it? How can this fear be reduced?

It’s around summer time for me and i can’t say i’ve really done anything with anyone because i’m reality i haven’t. my friend group who i don’t even know if i’m friends with always excludes me whenever they have party’s it’s just hard for me to go about my day with i try and make conversation and they just turn it down. there’s been about 5 instenses bow where they’ve all gotten together and not told me about it and idk why. i try and

find good things in life but it’s hard because i just want some people to talk to . i feel like no one appreciates me and it hurts. whenever i do end up seeing the people i think i’m friends with they just me as a punching bag giving me insults and being mean thinking i’ll be ok with it … but i’m not it hurts me so bad mentally and physically that i can’t deal with it anymore

I have lack of motivation to do anything since past 2 years , my father lost job during COVID , I lost my cousin in 2022 and I am unemployed dependent on my parents, my mother got hospitalized because of severe blood pressure after few months my father went through the same thing yet he has to work to support us and I can't help him this is killing me everybody is blaming me for their condition. My relatives always taunt me for being unemployed and being a 24 year old. The worst thing is I believe them and feel like I am worth nothing. I am unable to focus on anything always feeling blue and I am loosing the will to live. I have no self confidence whatsoever and I hate to talk to people, even my friends. I used to be a really smart girl , used to excel in studies and extra curricular activities and now I am nothing. I spent a lot of my parents money on my studies and now I can't even support myself. I used to be good at various things and now I feel like I am the dumbest girl in the world. Help me or not whatever.... I have lost faith even in God and i don't know.

For a long time I didn't dare to write my story on the site. My nightmares have resumed, and I'm again dreaming about a fat drunk man molesting me. He didn't hear the word no and I now feel "dirty". It's been 3 years that I've spent in promiscuous sexual relationships. It was both men and girls. I wanted to get clean, forget everything. But it didn't work, he comes to me in my dreams.... I want to get back at him for making me dirty.... But how? Now he's an alcoholic, he's become worthless. Sometimes my anger at him is so strong that I kill him in a procee: killing in the middle of a computer game