I am in a really tough spot right now and I don't know where else to turn. I hope sharing my story here might help me find some advice or at least some comfort. For the past few months, I have been struggling to keep my head above water financially. Everything seemed to hit me all at once, and now I don't know what to do.
It all started when I lost my job unexpectedly. The company I worked for downsized, and I was one of the unlucky ones. I had been with them for over five years, and suddenly, I was out on the streets. I did not have much in savings because I had been living paycheck to paycheck for years. Rent, bills, groceries quickly ate through what little I had saved. I started to panic because I didn't know how I was going to pay for anything.
I managed to pick up some odd jobs here and there, but none of them paid enough to cover my expenses. I applied for countless jobs, but the job market is brutal right now. I felt like I was drowning in rejection emails. My credit card debt started to pile up as I used it to cover essentials. The interest rates are killing me, and I am barely making a dent in the balance.
My car broke down last month, and I had to use my credit card to pay for the repairs. Without my car, I wouldn't be able to get to the few jobs I had managed to find. It felt like one thing after another kept going wrong. I tried to cut back on expenses, but there's only so much you can cut when you are already living on the bare minimum.
I have reached out to family and friends for help, but they are all struggling too. I feel ashamed and embarrassed to even ask. It's hard to keep up appearances when you are constantly worried about money. I lie awake at night, thinking about how I am going to get through the next day. The stress is taking a toll on my mental health, and I can feel myself sinking into a dark place.
I have considered taking out a loan, but I am afraid of getting even deeper into debt. I don't see a way out of this mess. I am trying to stay positive, but it's really hard when everything seems so bleak. I have even thought about selling some of my belongings just to get by.
I am at a loss and don't know what to do next. Has anyone else been through something like this? How did you manage to get back on your feet? Any advice or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I just need to know that there is a light at the end of this tunnel.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Please do try to consult a doctor or a psychologist
Hi! I understand that you have not been diagnosed with bipolar disorder by a specialist. Don't assign it! Maybe you're doing well and it's not so bad..... Tell me about the feelings of unworthiness. What are you not worthy of and why?
I really want to help you. Don't despair, any healthy person can feel what you are feeling. Don't think you're necessarily sick. You have low self-esteem, fear. Tell me, what are you afraid of?
Hold on! You're not alone! I'm with you!!! I can't be indifferent to your problem..... You know, it helps me to do this exercise (I do it as soon as I start to feel burdened by people, anxious about their presence): you need to feel love in your heart, at least from memories. And with that warmth start to see even small acts of kindness from others. My anxiety is going away!!!
You know, due to my problem ( my wife left me), I too am now feeling fear of loneliness, anxiety, and derpression, and a sense of worthlessness. I'm going to fight it all! That's why I'm writing to you, I want to support you too! I can even suggest: let's fight together. I'm going to do sports, it helps me to relieve anxiety.
I'm bipolar, too. I only refuse contact when I'm depressed. I'm pathetic and uninteresting then. Why do you have a fear of people? What are you least afraid of? Maybe there's something like that and you can at least socialize with someone. For example, you're least afraid of talking to people on the phone when you can't see them.