The worst thing that happened to me was my ADHD diagnosis. It didn’t explain anything, all the things I wasn’t good at are as they were. Nothing changes, and my psychiatrist pisses me off when she’s so confident I’m doing better now… What about my mental burnout? It maybe got 5% less severe since I’m on a low dose stimulant. My attention levels got a tiny bit better. But at the same time I’m more irritable and I don’t enjoy my meals anymore, it all tastes bland.

When I interact with the world outside my small circle of friends, I’m still left mentally exhausted... I think before medication I used to be more restless and talkative, and people maybe thought I was weird? But now half of my day is spent overthinking things that don't deserve nearly as much attention as my brain is giving them. I’m daydreaming non-stop. My emotions are still on overdrive, but they sort of dulled down a bit. So yes, previously there was too much of me, and people probably didn’t like me for that... But now, whenever I talk to someone, I worry that I'm boring them to death. Nothing I say feels impactful. I focus so damn hard on the information I'm trying to convey, struggling not to say something out of context, that I end up sounding expressionless and mechanical, like a goddamn encyclopedia!

Dating was always an ordeal, but now it’s slow agony... Do stimulants make me boring or just dumb? It's bad enough that I overthink every interaction and am going out of my way not to get distracted by random topics that most people find uninteresting. I literally find myself talking about things like the Cold War or the Moon landing half of the time. Before my diagnosis, I called myself a nerd, an introvert. Now I have to be glad that I officially have a mental disorder? Seriously, all I dream about is to learn how to keep the conversation flowing naturally, and also to turn off my overthinking. Explaining this to people is a complete waste of my energy. Most people outside my circle have no idea what “ADHD” even means. How do you live with your diagnosis, did your psychiatrist help you?

// Sorry for ranting I don’t want to sound mean. Guess I sort of need to vent off my frustration, and I have no one to turn to right now...

Having ADHD is so weird and agonizing!! I was diagnosed four weeks ago, and it validated most of my life’s failures. I can’t understand people, I hear them speak, but I can’t grasp complex information, at uni I have to make audio recordings of all lectures so that I can listen to them at home. I’m also really bad with numbers. I can’t do math in my head, and I could never keep up with my peers, who grasp it all so easily. It is called dyscalculia? Or something like that.. I don’t know how I finished school, it was a miracle.. I was the one with “learning issues” in sciences, thank heavens, my English and literature were above average. Even when I’m studying the subjects I like, I can’t focus for more than twenty minutes. It makes me fidgety and nervous, I feel unhealthy, as if my battery is always low. My memory sucks, and I’m not making much progress this year. No matter how much I try to study, I end up scrolling reels or playing games on the phone. I’m so privileged to be where I am, and yet doomed to be the one who fails. I’ll always be crawling to my goals like an inadequate dumbass...

Now that the final exams are looming, I’m so depressed I want just to drop out! I told my dad yesterday, and I thought he’d give me a slap. He’d probably do it if we were alone… My new doctor said we’d try the new type of medication aka stimulants. No idea what it is, I just pray they won’t screw up my brains even more. All the nootropics I’ve been prescribed at school were a total fiasco! I don’t mind taking meds, if they help me stop being a mess. Is it even possible to be an adult with an ADHD diagnosis? I want to study like everyone else, I need my degree. This is so unfair!

ever since the pandemic in 2020 my mental health became even worse. i was sent to a mental hospital two times and i was put on medication. it helped a bit but i was still

depressed. my mom recently got me a new therapist who is very nice and she diagnosed me with inattentive adhd, generalized anxiety disorder, and social anxiety disorder. and i am

gonna get the help that i need. but i still feel depressed. my mental health has been declining, and my hygiene is VERY bad, and my grades are slipping. i try my hardest to get better but it never works. i feel filthy

I am not able to focus on my studies more than 20 minutes that's why I never participate in competaive exam because it require lots of focus and attention.but know I felt bad for myself because if I want to succeed in life than I have to prepare for competitive exam.but sitting is very low not just in studies but I am not able to focus in many areas of life .like I face problem in driving.I do not remember the instructions given to me and make silly mistakes.I forget things very easily.and mood swings happen.sometimes I feel very good and after some time I felt depressed.stress and anxiety are persistent in my body for many years .even do not able to take decision whenever I take decision I felt anxiety even sometimes in a very simple deci

Sion .due to that I suffer a lot in my carrier and life .and I think this stress and anxiety create many physical health problem in my life from which I'm suffering even in present times like I have constipation problem from last four years. My physical health is not good I am underweight.and even happiness is gone through my life and I felt anxiety when i interact with people especially in social gatherings like marriage or family function its not like i do not want to interact with people but many a times my anxiety level is so high that i am not able to speak in front of people i face problem in remembering face of peoples whom i met due to that i face lots of embarresment of interacting with people specially in family function. Today I lost all my hopes and I see my feature in dark to get rid of anxiety and stress I did a lot of things such as meditation,yoga,prayer and real holy text baghwat geeta but nothing works even when I tell all these problem to my family they say this all means to escape from hard work.my school was shit and my college life was shit.I always face difficulty in organizing,planning and finish work on time .and I scared what will happen I will do job.since adolescent the problem become more problematic because to lower the stress and anxiety I start watching porn and masturbation. Which impacted my health severely even today I do such things to lower my anxiety.I have constant thoughts running in my mind sexual activity.