I’ve changed three jobs in fourteen months. One was awful from the start, but two others were pretty decent at first. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere. My team skills are nonexistent, I do my best to fit in with my colleagues, but it never works. At first, everyone is polite, but sooner or later I always begin to feel I’m an outsider in their conversations. I keep to myself, I’m not a sociable person, but people judge me as too private and unfriendly. I try to focus on the work instead, and at first the prospect of earning money and learning something new excites me. I obsess about new tasks and challenges until I burn out. Then it comes to the point when there’s nothing more to learn, I feel bored, and from that moment on, I literally make myself do the bare minimun while feeling guilty and unsatisfied. I hate the routine when I do things mechanically! The guilt and exhaustion build up, and I quit. Every time I tell myself next time I’ll stick around, that it wasn’t my kind of job… It’s very stressful, and I begin to feel ashamed of myself.

I would like to blame my ADHD for it all, but it’s not a big enough excuse. I feel useless and drained.

Yeah!! Am 25 and am in a healthy relationship, it's been 2 yrs now and am genuinely happy. He always take good care of me. He makes me happy. He makes me smile effortlessly. He feeds me. He protects me. He care for me. It's all good actually. Am so crazy about him

But sometimes it's hard you know. We won't fight a lot. But sometimes we do. At that time, I wanted to talk and express myself. Expressing my inner feelings makes me feel so much better instead of holding it in deep! But every time while I try do that I end up being a bad person. But 99% I won't do any bad or wrong thing fa sure.. then I dk why I end up being a bad person like that. It makes me feel useless. I always put myself behind to make him happy. I always priorities him. But still why I end up being a bad person, why am not enough, why I can't make him understand that all I need is reassurance and safe space to open up myself. Is this too much ask.. why he can't understand instead leaving me, instead of shouting at me he can just hug me and talk to me normally. Why he can't understand that all am needing is his comforting guesters, words actions, ect.

Instead of asking me where you wanna go.. I want him to make plans for me. I wanted him to say. Hey see this I saw this place while scrolling insta feeds or whatever or else there is an amazing place over there we are going there on this weekend. Why he can't make a happy plan for me?? Is this too much to ask..???

I always concerned about his health, I wanted the same! I wanted him to take me to the hospital. Sometimes he does. Sometimes he won't. There is a small prblm in my body that need immediate doctor consultation but he told multiple times that I need to see a doctor. But he never ordered or take me to the hospital for that particular reason. There is always an excuse for not being done. Why he can't take me to the hospital if it's not emergency?? Is this too much to ask?

I want him to take care of me !! He really does!! But am a stubborn kid.. I wanted a little more! Is this too much to ask..

Asking little more care, attention, love, craziness, passionate, kind gesture, love language, being cliche!!

Is this too much to ask??

Am I not worthy

Am I not deserving

Am I not enough

Why can't i live a normal like??

Why there is always so much pressure on me??

Why should I always be mature??

Why Should I always need to take responsibility??

Why I can't act silly??

I have lack of motivation to do anything since past 2 years , my father lost job during COVID , I lost my cousin in 2022 and I am unemployed dependent on my parents, my mother got hospitalized because of severe blood pressure after few months my father went through the same thing yet he has to work to support us and I can't help him this is killing me everybody is blaming me for their condition. My relatives always taunt me for being unemployed and being a 24 year old. The worst thing is I believe them and feel like I am worth nothing. I am unable to focus on anything always feeling blue and I am loosing the will to live. I have no self confidence whatsoever and I hate to talk to people, even my friends. I used to be a really smart girl , used to excel in studies and extra curricular activities and now I am nothing. I spent a lot of my parents money on my studies and now I can't even support myself. I used to be good at various things and now I feel like I am the dumbest girl in the world. Help me or not whatever.... I have lost faith even in God and i don't know.

even when am sournding by ppl i feel like m all alone no one actually understand what am going through i wake up every day in differnet mood state some times am happy for no reason others i cant stand doing anything its jus heavy feeling always looking for small shats wuth any one i know but its just not working i feel like they dont get me no one hear me like i want them to am spending all my time home just scroling in social media and that just get it worst then was already am not doing anything at the same time i lost intrest in evertihng and start with corona vurus and lock down