I'm going through a tough time. I find myself crying for no reason, and it's getting worse. I've tried to hold it back and think about why I feel so sad, but it's not helping. I even got a fever from thinking too much. My smartwatch warned me about stress all day yesterday. I'm feeling angry and hateful, and this has been happening for about two months.
When I was feeling lonely a few months ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD. Things were getting better, but now it's starting again. I've tried talking to my parents, but they think I'm joking and won't take me to see a therapist or counselor. I told my teacher, but nothing has changed. I spend about 90% of my time feeling lonely and alone because I don't have anyone to talk to.
I don't know what's going on with me. Even though everything seems fine in my life, I'm not happy. I posted about this before, and people suggested seeing a therapist, but my parents won't listen. I'm tired and don't know what to do. Christmas doesn't feel special, and no one around me is celebrating. I'm thinking about going far away and being alone for a while.
There are very few people in my life, and I've started feeling hate for everyone. I also feel like everyone lies to me, and everything is fake. My emotions are all over the place, and I know it's not right. It's getting worse every day, and it's too much for me to handle.
