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sarah2
1y ago

Coming out makes things worse!

Hello to everyone with mental health disorders and other mental illnesses.

My question is how you communicate with people dear to you about your diagnosis, and how often you think it’s better not to open up? Have you told your coworkers or your partner's relatives about your diagnosis?

I have a borderline personality disorder, and I normally keep it a secret because of how most people change when they think you’re mental. I know that my biggest problem is overreacting to tiniest emotional spikes, and I’m working on it, but I accept that there will be emotional breakdowns for the rest of my life, and the best I can do is forgive myself for my mood swings. My family knows that I’m seeing a therapist, and it helps, for I feel they’re more patient with me now and give me space to calm down when I’m losing it. But I don’t know, maybe it’s just because they’re parents and their love is unconditional?…

My only attempt to open up to someone I loved was a mistake. We broke up weeks after that, and from the moment he knew about BPD, things went downhill. There was probably a great deal of my fault in that. I always attract men younger than myself and end up disbelieving their feelings for me are real. But I still think that how my ex reacted before he found out about my BPD and after were two different things. At the peak of our breakdown he said I was an underdeveloped child who needed to grow up… It’s really hurting because I’m struggling to be a grownup who can control her emotions, and this person knew it. Why did I expect him to be more understanding? He could have read about BPD to see that there’re not only bad emotions… My sensitive part goes both ways, and I can be a caring and loving partner. Telling anyone else but my closest people about my war with myself makes me feel very vulnerable. I think it’s easier to explain my rage or impulsive behavior by just saying I’m stressed and apologizing. They don’t need to know about BPD.

Specialist answer
Veena Choudhary
1y
Specialist

Hi all strength and love to you. It's always a huge relief to open up to the people closest to you since you no longer have to hide what you are feeling like your parents. You ultimately don't want to be an intimate long term relationship with someone who doesn't get you or accept you for who you are. Always remember that whether a person is receptive or not its okay. you deserve genuine and healthy love. Those relationships that add value, joy, meaning to one's life should be the goal rather than those that are filled with toxicity. This should be clear when you share your diagnosis. if they are judgemental, make you feel uncomfortable then it's a choice you make of how important it is to have such people in your life.


  • Allowing yourself to take a step back and recognise what made the relationship not a good fit than saying its a mistake to open up to the person or just apologising for what you are going through. You are stressing yourself rather than accepting the reality of the relationship. You need to reframe your thoughts. The worst thing to do is to blame yourself or your mental health issues for it ending by saying statements like " great deal of my fault in that".


Mental health disorder are deeply personal and there is no right way to talk about them. All you can do is to find an approach that works for you.


First whenever you want to tell someone about your bipolar disorder you need to question yourself:


  • Who are most important people in your life and who will be your support system?


  • How much details do you want to give them?


  • If your support system alone knows about it is it enough or do you want to share with others too? if you want to share then be prepared for any consequences.


  • If it's not taken positively by that person? then do you still want to say to take it out from your heart or want to keep the information with you till you are ready to talk about it.


  • What are the 5 important traits required in a relationship?


  • were those traits existing in your previous relationship?


These questions you should always ask yourself before disclosing about it to anyone.


  • Think of the place that will make you safe, comfortable having the conversation with your loved ones. consider in advance how much information you want to share with them. pick a time when both of you are relaxed to start the conversation.it would always be easier to start the discussion with some general questions to see what and how much the other person knows about bipolar disorder.


# you can ask them have you heard of bipolar disorder or


# have you met anyone with this condition.


# what do you think about it?


This will give you an idea of how receptive that person is to hearing and understanding about your condition. This can be good starting point of conversation if you feel the person is receptive. If not you take a call should you further initiate the conversation. This will help you to decide as well to whom to disclose and form whom to keep it a secret. you will save yourself from self blaming as well.

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shy_guy
1y

My wife, who is a psychiatrist, always insists on a full-openness approach. At least with the people you love. I agree with her, I’ve lost so many friends because of my depression and untreated OCD, and because I didn’t realize myself at the time what I was fighting. It helps to explain exactly what your inner war is about, rather than sharing only your diagnosis. Don’t expect people who have never coped with serious mental issues to know what you need. BPD sounds incomprehensible to them, and researching it on their own may even push them away further. In contrast, explaining after your episode of rage or jealousy what your trigger was and what kind of reaction would help you manage it, will strengthen your bond and help your loved one understand you better. Do not blame yourself for one unsuccessful relationship, try to learn from it!

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Violet omen
1y

Being vulnerable scares us all! Trust and openness with the people you care about can backfire in all unpredictable sorts of ways, yet it can also help establish long-lasting relationships because others will learn how to respond in a positive way to your mood swings and will joke about them rather than judge them. Perhaps coworkers and distant relatives do not need to know all the details, but your family and your future partner will learn to support you. Trust them.

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aksoll
1y

I think your ex-boyfriend was not ready for you. He was younger than you, maybe his commitment to your relationships wasn’t deep enough. It takes maturity on both sides to comfort and accept each other with all the imprfections. I hope your next relationship will be more fullfilling and you’ll feel more at ease being fully honest ❤️

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sky lark
1y

people who run away from the mere mentioning of a mental disorder are misinformed. they think nothing like that will ever happen to them! if we keep such things secret, it will continue to be a taboo in our society, and we’ll be stigmatized for the rest of our lives. it is normal to have problems. we must ensure that it’s absolutely fine to talk about them.

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lonely john
1y

I wouldn’t tell my private health details to colleagues or partner’s relatives. What for? They can use it against you, even when it’s undeserved. With a life partner, it’s kind of tricky. I’d appreciate total openness, being left in the dark hurts. I would leave if I found out my partner had been keeping something like that from me. So, imo, you did everything right with that guy, and now you need to take care of yourself.

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mrsKnobbs
1y

Dear Sarah, do not close yourself to people because of one misguided relationship. It will only bring loneliness and alienation. There’s nothing wrong with your diagnosis, as long as you get treatment. Choose wisely whom to share your story with, but don’t think that you are always the problem or the reason for bad outcomes. You’ll see it for yourself when you meet the right person.

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ch00tah
1y

When I was in depression, and not even realizing it, I craved reassurance and love. I screwed up a lot of connections with people because I hungered for their attention like a maniac but couldn’t give anything in return at the time. In hindsight, if I’d told them what I was dealing with, if I knew myself that I had developed depression and needed professional help, I think my social circle would have been much broader today. It would at least include people who would be willing to show compassion and support. I regret not asking for help.

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