I am 20 years female, doing undergraduation , I am literally fed of my life, myself , for even single minute , I am not having peace, happiness, it's my first 2nd day of fourth sem , previously I was present for only one day in last week , I wish I could miss my classes because I am too socially anxious , it's feels so suffocated when I sit with 70+ students, doesn't have any female best friend in my class to whom I can share my feelings, my situations ,not from only class but outside too. I don't know why it's happening to me , but I get messed up whenever i am anxious, u know I don't understand anything what to say , what to do next , when someone asked questions or anything else , and my female classmates see me like I am from another planet , make faces looking at me , thinks that I am so strange , weird.
Everyone are too busy in their lives , having fun, I know no one ever gonna care when I get dissappear somewhere. Everyone are busy in learning new things , skills , growing and I am only stuck at getting comfortable in a squared classroom , to remain calm whenever someone asked me anything. I have shared so many things before also, still have not saw any changes myself. Everything gets exact opposite of what I think , want.
I don't know but it's getting so so tough for me to behave like a normal girl in my college like every other
