I'm going through a tough time. I find myself crying for no reason, and it's getting worse. I've tried to hold it back and think about why I feel so sad, but it's not helping. I even got a fever from thinking too much. My smartwatch warned me about stress all day yesterday. I'm feeling angry and hateful, and this has been happening for about two months.

When I was feeling lonely a few months ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD. Things were getting better, but now it's starting again. I've tried talking to my parents, but they think I'm joking and won't take me to see a therapist or counselor. I told my teacher, but nothing has changed. I spend about 90% of my time feeling lonely and alone because I don't have anyone to talk to.

I don't know what's going on with me. Even though everything seems fine in my life, I'm not happy. I posted about this before, and people suggested seeing a therapist, but my parents won't listen. I'm tired and don't know what to do. Christmas doesn't feel special, and no one around me is celebrating. I'm thinking about going far away and being alone for a while.

There are very few people in my life, and I've started feeling hate for everyone. I also feel like everyone lies to me, and everything is fake. My emotions are all over the place, and I know it's not right. It's getting worse every day, and it's too much for me to handle.

Thank you all for supporting me!!! I don't feel so lonely now... But I have to sneakily read the site because we can't access the internet from my phone. For those who think that this is a good place for a child, I want to write my feelings.... I tell them to my mom when she says "you will become disciplined".I said, "You're a disciplinarian, aren't you?" She said, "Yes." "Do you like to lie down with your phone in the morning? " I ask her. I get an affirmative answer. To which I suggest my mom imagine that in the morning an officer is yelling near her ear, and if I don't jump out of bed immediately, I get a reprimand. And then I'm running cross-country. And mom hangs up the phone.She doesn't realize that it is so hard to tolerate the same person all day long, and an unpleasant one at that. There's always the same "..." in the ranks. He's the one who sleeps next to me. We share a bedside table with him. There's no other way. They yell at me for everything. I have to do everything fast. Guys are not nice around me. You can't look for sympathy and weakness, you have to expect aggression and have time to hit.I'm locked up like a prison, video surveillance everywhere, lesson control. You can't lie in bed during the day. There's a lot of sports. I'm sick of it all. I could probably escape, but where to?I'm not welcome anywhere, my parents don't need me. I don't have any friends here yet. I have to be aggressive, otherwise I will be considered a loser.

There's always a tough officer around, and instead of sympathy, he yells at me not to whine. All in all, my childhood was a success

I am a teenager when I see people around my age having alot of friends and enjoying I just feel alone ever since COVID all my friends section changed and I had no friends for 2 years..I made 2 friends but most of the time I have no energy or will to talk so it is no longer the same... I am their second choice and I know I am somewhat at fault because unintentionally I take out my frustration on them I hate going to school now everything started going downhill ever since COVID

I don't get to see my best friend much now since she is in a different section but we still talk but I feel like she doesn't need me anymore she has alot of new friends now I feel like I don't belong among them I know she loves me but I just can't stop feeling this way.

I'm feeling stressed there is lot of things are in my mind every day small small things hurts mee due to which i do overthinking all time I don't have good relationship with my parents specially with my father . I trust everyone very quickly and do anything they said even if anybody stop talking with mee I feel vry alone and start panic I am doing graduation yet and there is no source of income know for mee due to which I can't full fill that what I want my parents full fill my basic needs only not more than that I can expect form them bcz they also have enough money I can't handle the situation which is happened the thing is I feel to much due to which i harm myself I can't handle small small situations I feel so lonely so low so alone upset depressed panic what ever happen in my life harm my health also things related to my parents everyone who is close to my heart I feel to much when they not behave good with mee .and my parents always compared mee with my cousins and other childrens who is form poor family but achieve something in life they said mee we do everything for you but you are not that type of child which we wished 😭 it's hurts mee when ever I take permission for anything they said directly no always and on small small things they stop talking with mee as a punishment.its hurting mee in the same house my parents no talking to mee totally ignoring mee I can't handle this situation .if I do a big mistake then if they punish mee I can understand but on small things like if they said mee to do something and i done that work little bit late they stop taking which is vry silly things they only treat mee like they only punish mee not my siblings I can't understand why it is so plz help mee what I do tell Mee due to these things i losing my focus, hopes ,trust from everything I feel irritated vry quickly due to these things