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Eva
244d ago

How many days like this?

Today, I drank hand sanitiser out of frustration. I'm sorry for losing control. I'm having urges to eat and drink inedible things, but I'm not suicidal. Should I do something about it?


I'm struggling with a dark family secret and my mother's declining health, which makes me feel guilty and overwhelmed. Recently, I discovered a disturbing truth about my family that's been weighing heavily on my mind. Additionally, my mother's health is declining, and she's scheduled to see a heart specialist. I feel guilty for potentially exacerbating her condition after I shared my plans to take the Forensic Science Entrance exam, which seemed to upset her and trigger heart attack-like symptoms. I've been trying to distract myself from these thoughts, but they're overwhelming me. In the past, I've self-harmed to cope, and now I'm ingesting inedible substances. I need help to address these underlying issues, including the dark family secret, my guilt, and my self-harm.


At the hostel, I installed dark curtains to feel less watched. I'm open to inpatient treatment, but my parents won't allow it, and I've heard rumours about psychiatric wards, especially a government psychiatric hospital. If treatment is possible other hospitals, I have no issues. I want to be safe and receive humane treatment.


Additionally, I need to report that a university doctor was rough and unsympathetic and suggested I take pesticides. These comments made me feel extremely uncomfortable, and I’d like to file a complaint.


Thank you for understanding and supporting my commitment to my well-being.

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Veena Choudhary
236d
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Hi,


When your mind ruminates, brims overs stressful thoughts and it is not easy to sort through them or process through those emotions. You should go to a therapist or do online sessions at your comfort space like your room. Therapist will help you in processing of those emotions and you could even talk to her about dark secret which is troubling you. sharing in a safe space and speaking aloud to the therapist will help you feel relieved and reduce the stress, burden piled in your mind. Therapist will also teach you coping skills and techniques to deal with this.


For the guilt trip once your mom is doing well you can always talk to her, validate her feelings, understands what she wants and see how well you can put across what you like and want you want to do in your life. give her a clarity of why you want to take forensic science and ask her why is she not happy about it? she may have certain myths about it which you can clear with facts., you just need to reason with her with sound knowledge, facts.


You should also start journalling. writing down these thoughts, your feelings everyday will help you understand and be aware of what stresses you a lot and help in reducing intrusive thoughts. writing them down would also help you to transfer thoughts into a paper and just de-stressing yourself.

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Rfadel
244d

i'm really sorry to hear about everything you're dealing with. it sounds like it's been really tough, and it's okay to not have all the answers right now. sometimes, when we're overwhelmed, we just need to take things one day at a time. have you thought about reaching out to a local support group? there are so many people out there who might be going through similar things and could offer you some solidarity and advice. also, it’s important to hold on to the things that bring you even the smallest bit of joy. whether it’s a favorite book, a piece of music, or a walk in nature, those little moments can be really powerful. how do you usually spend your days?

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thurman18679
244d

Your message is deeply concerning, and I appreciate your candor in sharing such a personal story. It's clear that multiple factors are contributing to your current state of mind, including the pressure of your family dynamics and your mother's health. Analyzing your triggers and responses could be beneficial. For instance, what specifically about your forensic science plans upset your mother, and why does this resonate so strongly with you? Understanding these intricacies might help in managing your feelings of guilt. Additionally, have you explored any techniques for mindfulness or meditation? These can sometimes provide a momentary refuge from overwhelming thoughts. What are your thoughts on finding a neutral third party to mediate a conversation with your parents about your need for treatment?

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frozen
244d

my heart goes out to you. 💔 it’s so hard to navigate through such a heavy storm, especially when it feels like you’re doing it alone. i can feel your pain through your words, and it’s clear you’re dealing with so much. please, please know that your feelings are valid. you’re allowed to feel overwhelmed, guilty, and lost. it’s okay to cry, to scream, to let it all out. have you tried expressing your feelings through art or music? sometimes, creating something beautiful can help channel the pain. remember, you deserve to feel safe and loved. don't let anyone, not even your own thoughts, tell you otherwise. sending you all the love and strength in the world. 💖✨

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abelhyatt447
244d

You are incredibly brave for reaching out and sharing your story. It's not easy to admit when things are going wrong, especially when it involves family and personal health. Sometimes, even simple things like making your bed each morning or having a cup of tea can lend a bit of structure and comfort to your day. Also, it’s crucial to address the issue with the university doctor. Their behavior was completely unprofessional and unacceptable. How do you feel about writing a formal complaint?

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sheila snyder
244d

Hey, sorry you're dealing with all this right now. It sounds like a lot. I don’t know if this will help, but sometimes when I’m feeling really stressed, I find it helps to change up my environment a bit. Maybe try taking a walk to a new place or rearranging your room. It might sound silly, but sometimes a change of scenery can help clear your mind a bit. Also, definitely look into reporting that doctor. No one should be treated like that, and it’s important that they’re held accountable. Have you tried talking to any friends about what you’re going through?

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zane13630
244d

it sounds like you're carrying a lot on your shoulders right now, and that's not easy. when we're under immense stress, our bodies and minds can react in unexpected ways. you mentioned that you're open to inpatient treatment, which is a great step. even if your parents are hesitant, is there a way you can have a calm and honest conversation with them about how you're feeling? sometimes, parents don't fully understand the depth of our struggles until we lay it all out for them.

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Connie
244d

Please, try to find someone in your life who can offer a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on. Sometimes, just having someone to talk to can make a big difference. Also, try to find ways to be kind to yourself. Maybe treat yourself to something small that makes you happy, like a favorite snack or a relaxing bath. You deserve to feel cared for and loved. Hang in there, and remember that there are people out there who care about you. Take care.

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hoppebell179
243d

Dear friend, I am deeply moved by your words. It is evident that you are in a state of distress, and I want to offer you some practical advice. Try to establish a routine that incorporates healthy habits. For example, ensure that you get enough sleep, eat nutritious meals, and engage in physical activity. These activities can help stabilize your mood and provide a sense of normalcy. Take it one step at a time.

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RealTalkRachel
243d

please, please try to stay away from harmful things like hand sanitizer. your body deserves to be treated with kindness, even if your mind is in a dark place. maybe find something soothing to do, like listening to your favorite music or watching a comforting movie. it's okay to take things slow and be gentle with yourself. remember, there are people out there who care about you, even if it doesn't always feel that way. hang in there. 💕

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mckenziehipolito58
243d

Hello, I read your message and felt compelled to reach out. Your situation is deeply concerning, and it's clear you're in a lot of pain. I know it's difficult, but please try to find someone you trust to talk to, whether it's a friend, a relative, or even a mentor. Sharing your burden can make it feel a little lighter. Also, consider focusing on something that you enjoy or that can give you a sense of purpose. I'm wishing you strength and sending you positive thoughts.

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