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Ali W
1y ago

i am so tired, please I need help

Hi, i'm j. Maybe i'm crazy, I do not know what im doing here, i can not afford psychologist, so I searched for free therapy and here I am. I'm tired, first of all I'm gay, living in lebanon, my parents are so religious, I believe that being gay is haram in our religion, so there is always this feeling that I'm making a sin, that I am getting away from God, I'm losing my personality, I dated a guy who drinks alcohol a lot, so I started drinking, and that is haram too, I can not stop it, i like guys, and i love god, and those two can not be together and I can not get rid of any of them. 2nd of all, i feel like there is something living inside me for example i say" i'm thirsty" then i say me too, i say "i'm hungry" then i say yes lets eat im hungry too, i always feel like there is someone watch me, i go to the mirror fix my hair, and act normal as if someone is watching me, i am scared, i am tired, i feel like the thing inside me wants me to fail University, i try to study but he wants to use the phone, i got angry, my heart hurts me to stop using the phone and i can not, wtf is this. And my biggest problem is that i am poor, I am literally poor, I have a very small car, it always stops working and I call for someone to pick me up, i am 23, i am selling all my stuff because my father is the worst person, he always tell me, u didn't help me picking the olives ( he is a farmer) so why are u eating from them, while i am eating, i always sleep hungry, u will say i am 23 why i am not working, that is because i always have heart pain when i work, i can not get out of the house, whenever i got out, i feel a weird feeling, i am studying now a full stack course, i hope this works, i am tired. I do not know if someone will read this, my english is bad

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Veena Choudhary
1y
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Hi,


Lets first address the voices you hear. its called Auditory hallucinations. This voice don't sound same for everyone. For some it would sound like a friend talking, this voice may speak nice to your or compliment you, say unkind things, urge you to dangerous things, comment on your activities. You could hear these voices when you are under lot of stress or while using substances or alcohol. Hearing voices that say cruel things or unkind things should be cause of concern as it can affect your sense of self worth and emotional well being, You can go to therapist if voice is cruel.


Coping with this:


These strategies will help you cope with the voices.


  • Keep a journal. Keep a log of your auditory hallucinations and record or write what the voices say. If its something cruel then write and understand what is triggering it and potential causes for it and notice the pattern fro example you may hear cruel comments during specific time of the day or when you are irritated or angry. This information can even help your therapist to help you in dealing with this.


  • Speak calmly and compassionately even if the voice say negative things, Try a thanks but no thanks approach. Acknowledge the voice by letting it know i hear what you are saying but i am not going to focus on it or do it right now. Then distract your mind and do something or continue to do what you were doing.


  • Take time for relaxation like yoga, good sleep, walk in greenery can ease the effects of stress.


For many being gay is challenging and painful experience. Thoughts about religion, society, family make us feel negatively about ourselves for being one. when you prevent yourself from being your authentic self the more shame makes you feel that you are not good enough. It's important not to let self hater or feelings of being wrong or sin stop you from living your authentic life. Start loving yourself as a person.In this way you can take control of shame and guilt you feel. This is just one part of your identity and you have so many things much more than this. This one thing cant define your identity. Do what your heart says and believe it and own it. That way you will not loose personality as you will be confident to exhibit what you feel within. So listen to what your heart says. Sin or not a sin is a choice you make based on what you feel. be true to yourself, respect and love yourself.


Next things you need to ask yourself questions like:


  • The current state you are in what can you do to overcome it? ( like when you say poor).


  • What is stopping you from work. write in detail about it and see how factual it is. if there is any perceived truth in that or is it your assumptions. then address it.


  • When ever you get a weird feeling write down what type of feeling you have in a body and what thoughts accompany with this weird feeling. This will help you understand what feeling it is and give you a better clarity.


  • what is your goals and aspirations in life?



address these questions to help you understand how to move ahead.

trantow
1y

Hi! I want to do something to support you. I know how much you're hurting. Think if God means anything to you, maybe prayers will be your support. And maybe at least you won't be dating an alcoholic. At least you'll have one less problem. Small steps to victory

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conroyn
1y

Hi! My support! I realized that everything is not so bad: you have a car, you study at university, you have a family and even a friend, although an alcoholic. Your father, apparently, wants to pressure you to work through food. Think about why it's important to him that you work. We all face hardships and setbacks, but it is these trials that make us stronger. Don't give up and remember that every step forward is already a little luckBe strong and don't give up!!!!

alessandro
1y

There's so much more ahead of you. You'll get through it. Maybe you feel like a different person inside because you don't fully accept being gay. Try to work with yourself to accept that identity. Since you can't go to a psychologist, maybe religion and prayer will help you. Even though your religion rejects it, God loves you for who you are.

felipe
1y

Whatever you do, remember that you are not alone. No matter what happens, I will always support you...The best is yet to come, so straighten up and stop crying. Whatever is happening now is not the end. Try to start helping your father with his chores, it's hard for him too.

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howell
1y

Think of it as another lesson to be learned. Life can be hard, but you're stronger than that. Don't let it beat you. Think about what you can do for yourself to change the situation in your favor.....

darona
1y

You don't realize how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Don't despair. It is often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock. Start working from home remotely .yu if you can't get out of the house. Your parents will treat you better, and you will have money. and life will start to get better.

darronkula
1y

You write that your biggest problem is that you are poor. Turns out you don't care so much that you don't work, that you're gay. Just the amount of money would solve your problems. So find a way to make money! It's so easy! If you can't go to work, work online. Don't get discouraged and get a grip.

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artscham
1y

Hi. It's probably because of your gender rejection that you are splitting...and already talking to the person inside...try to accept yourself fully...life will start to get better

jmayer
1y

I'm really sorry about what happened. But you are a very strong person who can get through this.

Just hang in there and things will get better in time.

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wisokycali
1y

My support! Even though you are gay, it doesn't stop you from starting to help your father, and make money. If you stop abusing alcohol, you will feel better and you will be able to work....

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