I dont know

Hii there dear readers

I don't know from where I start yet my current love life isn't working.im in long distance relationship Last year Nov 15 my ex and I started having fights he used to fight all the time and used to leave me and threat me at jan 18 I had breakup from three year old realtionship. I was broken I didn't knew what to do at the moment my best friend he was also an broken heart with 11ex he comforted me soo much honestly I realised I have feelings for him and he has to later we started dating and my life was like it became alive,I made him feel complete all was perfect until March 18 came I tried to make new friends outside in discord there some bad people started forcing to send nudes and started harrasing me for 4 hours I was harrassed and I took screenshot how they harassing me and sent to bf in a hope he would help me comfort me later on...he misunderstood all and stopped talking to me became angry blocked me it took 13 days to recover back 13 days miscommunication and like I sent him 5k+ messages with this all his phone got broken and tab he wasn't able to use.only laptop was with him so after patch up he changed like totally he started playing games for 5 to 6 hours and started late reply I used for his reply for weeks and miscommunication due to games he did and many people has suggested me to do breakup with him yet.. I have true feelings so i wasn't able to do so everything went same till 4 months I tried millions of ways to fix relationship and make him spend some time with me yet nothing worked and he is now out of my touch.. last month then a friend provoken him to do breakup with me by saying lies and he belived yet I recovered relationship back in 3 days.i messaged him directly after trying everything that I have started feeling lonely and alone in realtionship he only said oof on that and didn't took any action and continued all.one week ago his exams got finished he got his phone back and he didn't informed me about it I just Sussed on him that how he is using phone late night so I asked him did he got his phone back he said yes and oof with that. His gaming habbit reduced alot this month but new habbit started not being online only which is more upsetting...later I said him 2 days ago that I ain't gonna use phone and maybe last conversation it is between him and me gonna be yesterday he just read chats and replied nothing only asked why not I gonna use phone and replied nothing I said him I love you he said nothing on that I got bad vibes then..today a tarot reader did reading and said that my bf is confused he is with someone else and he is cheating on me I were broken to listen tarot reader also said that he is not choosing me he is choosing someone else and in current time he is thinking to move on....my heart was like broken but then to I feel like my bf Maybe with someone else but he didn't cheating on me as I feel from inside ...but whatever tarot reader said that's also matching with my situation disturbed love life and all. I literally don't know what to do many people and many friends has said to breakup some said he has loosed interest from me some saying he is not good person some saying he is play boy I literally don't know what to do I simply love him and that's all I know I'm just living on past sweeet memories of Jan,Feb and march...but nothing is getting fixed on I directly texted him a week ago to spend time with me I directly said what I feel when he is not with me he said he knows its his fault and said these days he is very busy with training and gym and all that's why he not online or spending time and that time I felt like he as insecurity or angry with me or what i felt at that moment but tarot reveals move on someone else in his life cheating and all....