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justicelittle599
1y ago

I don't know how I feel

I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder like a year ago, maybe even less. Before, I was taking multiple antidepressants, trying to cure my persistent depression for a few years, but without success. I've switched multiple jobs throughout the years and I always thought that I'm just lazy and/or too softspined, which might be true.

Right now my doctor and I are trying to find right medications that would work for me, but so far nothing seem to help. I think that my depression is still with me, but now I actually am not sure anymore. I've forgotten how I felt when I was normal. I feel like I've been lazy and unproductive my whole life, except the times when i was hypomanic.

Right now I feel like I'm trying to find excuses for my inaction in mysterious diseases that I have. I hate myself, I hate my life and I don't see a future for myself. Which is funny, because it is exactly how depression is described.

I'm starting to give up on normal life, with relationships, friends and other things that I had hoped for. I am definitely not trying hard enough to do something with it, but I just don't want to. If a person doesn't want to help himself, you can't help him, right?

Anyway, I don't know what I'm trying to do here. I was asked to try and find help in communities that share the same problem. But I feel like I'm beyond help, even if it sounds cringey. I'm sorry for being so dramatic, I just felt like it. Thanks for reading.

Specialist answer
Dr. Elisabeth Jones
1y
Specialist

Hello!

To begin with, it is important to understand the causes of your emotional state. The fact that you receive treatment and are followed up by a specialist is half the battle. I also recommend that you find an opportunity to visit a psychologist on a permanent basis. Depression often occurs due to a large number of unexpressed and unlived emotions. Roughly speaking, depression is a lack of mental energy. This energy, which is normally enough in every person, is used to contain a huge layer of emotions and worries, often unconscious ones. Therefore, in case of depression, it is important to work from two sides – physical one, i.e. seeing a doctor and taking medications, and psychological one, i.e., working through old traumas.

If at the moment you don’t have the opportunity to visit a psychologist, you can perform certain techniques and exercises on your own and they will help ease the state. Here are several options.

The first option is to start keeping a diary of emotions. During the week, three times a day (in the morning, afternoon and evening) ask yourself the question: «How do I feel now?» and write down the answers in a notebook. At the first stage, this will help you learn to keep track of your state.

At the second stage, try to find out when you feel the worst, and understand what exactly causes this state. For example, you watched your Instagram feed, involuntarily began to compare yourself with others, the mood worsened. Or you’ve got some obsessive thought in your head, for example, “I’m worse than all” and after that you felt anguish and despair. Thus, at the second stage, your task is to track all the triggers (i.e. the mechanisms triggering the negative state) and eliminate them if possible.

Another simple but important and effective task. For the next month, set yourself a daily goal. It should be something simple that you can definitely do, like going to the park or doing a task at work. In the second month, set yourself two daily goals, for example, personal and work ones. On the third month – three daily goals. After the third month, you can finish this exercise or continue to set daily goals, but no more than three.

For all its simplicity, this technique gives tremendous results: the completed tasks raise self-esteem and relieve the feeling of belief “I’m lazy” or “I’m not capable of anything”. Subsequently, you can increase the complexity of your daily tasks as you wish.

Most importantly, treat yourself with love. Don’t ask too much of yourself. Don’t compare yourself to others. Do as much as you can now.

You have a huge potential inside, you will definitely make it. Good luck!

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ahaan
1y

Nothing is dramatic here my friend

Sometimes a person not feeling like helping himself is because he doesn't have enough secretion of certain hormones and chemicals which makes one happy excited motivated and determined


So it's not your fault either if you feel so, but ofcourse one thing you can do is keep looking for treatment, medicines help a lot


I myself had depression and after I started taking the minimum dose of of a certain medicine, I cannot explain how irrationally happy and enthusiastic I felt it made me feel like I want to do something with my life change my life


So yes please make sure you have the right medication, additionally try joining some outdoor activities which make you feel nice, some hobbies, some healing activities, also try keeping your close and trustworthy people around, they help a lot in this journey


Nothing is ever too messed up to not be fixed, you just need to stay consistent

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bubu
1y

https://youtu.be/llOPqKD-s4w?si=Pmlt99z40-S8VyEB

So this is a link I could find for you

I hope this helps


Moreover, what are you feeling being dramatic for?!?! For asking for genuine help care and treatment?!?! No of course you're asking for what you want and it's okay to ask for that do not regret anything


You need to know that you're suffering from something and you don't need to feel guilty about it and there's nothing cringe about it, and someone makes you feel like so, they're not for people, they do not deserve to stay in your life


You need to keep believing in yourself and not give in and surrender to the problem, I see the zest in you to finish this problem to end it from the root, I believe you can do it, just make sure you have right medication and treatment and counseling and you'll win over it dw


You did not ask for this disease but kicking it out of your life is completely your decision and you need to stand strong and fight against it


Stand strong my friend

We're here for you

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eberthaskell839
1y

"Don't compare yourself to others "

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