I'm experiencing a strange mix of anger and sadness. Loneliness overwhelms me as I lack friends my age and feel isolated in this place for almost six years. I'm like an orphan, surrounded by elderly neighbors and no relatives,no on of my age whom i can talk with. My small sister is addicted to phones, and my parents seem indifferent. Living in a neighborhood of retirees makes my family the youngest, but their interference complicates everything.
Exam pressure adds to my woes, and despite efforts to stay mentally healthy through spiritual practices, loneliness persists. Emotional changes are evident, and crying has become routine without apparent cause. Attempts to discuss my struggles with my parents result in scolding and abuse. Social anxiety plagues me, worsened by restrictions on talking to peers due to caste differences. The lack of mental health awareness and ongoing family conflicts compound my distress.
I love traveling, but even that is discouraged. Balancing school and family expectations pushes me to study late into the night, affecting my mental health. I feel trapped, unheard, and increasingly desperate in this challenging environment.
This made my character change totally
from extrovert to introvert. I'm very very much tried.
