I hope you're all doing well. I'm reaching out today because I need some help and advice. I've been struggling with accepting the mistakes I've made in my life
To give you some context, I made some poor decisions in my early twenties. I dropped out of college, thinking I could make it on my own without a degree. I tried to start a business, but it failed miserably, leaving me in a lot of debt. I also hurt some people who were very close to me. One of my best friends stopped talking to me because I broke their trust. I regret these decisions every single day.
Now, in my thirties, I still carry the weight of those mistakes. I managed to go back to school and get my degree, but I feel like I'm always playing catch-up. My career is not where I imagined it would be, and I feel like I'm constantly trying to prove myself. Every time I look back, I feel like I wasted so many opportunities.
I also feel like a bad person because of the relationships I damaged. I was insecure and thought everyone was against me so I just stopped talking to a lot of good people that cared for me.
Sometimes, I find myself avoiding situations where I might make mistakes again. This means I miss out on new opportunities because I'm too scared of failing. I’,m avoiding people because I’m afraid I'll fail them again. I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to learn from my past and be a better person, but I don't know where to start.
I try to remind myself that everyone makes mistakes, even those who seem to have everything together. I know that making mistakes is part of being human, but it doesn’t make it any easier to accept my own.
