I feel that I'm a lost cause.

I have ADHD and I've been told that people with ADHD often struggle with compulsive behavior, which I can definitely relate to. I hate that this part of my condition holds me back from becoming the person I want to be. To combat these urges, I've had to delete my social media, quit drinking, and am currently battling a gambling addiction that is the only thing that brings me any joy.

Since the passing of my mother, things have gotten even worse. I feel lonely, as I'm an introvert and often isolate myself from others because I find it hard to deal with the emotions of those around me. I feel like I've borrowed so much money to gamble that I'm a burden to those around me, and I'm tired of having to constantly rebuild my life. I feel like I'm not worthy of a better life and that I'm a lost cause.