Hey guys.
It's me again.
It's been 32 days.
I thought I had gotten over it, I thought I could control it now, I thought I was free from those treacherous, nagging words in my head.
It's been 32days since I last felt so worthless, since I last felt I am not good enough.
When I posted the first time and I read it the comments it helped a lot, my writing improved.
I didn't feel like taking down my page anymore. At that time I had 500 plus followers and I was happy, content thrilled to even continue writing.
Now it's 32days after and I have 2.1k followers now. They are so invested in the story and If I miss a day my DM gets full of them asking when I would post.
This is suppose to be good enough, it's suppose to make me see that I am good enough.
So why won't the voice in my head just shut up. Most importantly, why am I believing that voice instead of the evidence in front of me.
I hate myself.
I feel horrible for going back to that terrible place. I thought I had dealt with it.
When it started some days back, I thought I could handle it but I woke up today and it's horrible I don't feel like writing a damn thing.
I feel horrible.
This is not how writers are. I can't be a good writer if I keep relapsing like this.
What do I do? šššš
How do I get over this again?
