i'm always here for everyone and i think people not only understood that but take advantage of it.
i have a friend who always calls me out of the blue for "urgencies" (not urgencies at all just rants on shopping on loop that require my attention) at time i'm at work.
i always pick up, because i do care listening to my friend whatever is the topic and i take her seriously. what bothers me is that i don't get the same energy.
she is like "i know i'm bothering you but blablabla" so you know but you still only think about you? damn.
today she called and i sighed in anger, because i warned her upfront today that i work and i'm unavailable, even saturday and sunday because i have too much to do (taking the shift of teammates and at the same time working for an upcoming project, where everyone say they can't focus on it because of their work, i work too but i still invest in the project tho, so i'm overwhelming myself) so she is aware! no excuses!
and it's like she still tries to find a way to squeeze in my impossible schedule, like she doesn't care about my situation, it's kinda selfish.
it's not the first time she does that despite me saying boundaries, one time she was even mad at me for not being devoted to listen to her on a topic i already replied many times and where we both agreed on a time to talk and let me focus on my plans, a day i was almost "hurt myself" because of an horrible panic attack because i wasn't ok because of an amazing opportunity and my mom being abusive ruining it, did she care about that when i told her? no, only her fucking dress.
so now i just replied with a text "i'm sorry i can't i'm almost in a burn out" and as always instead of asking about it she just said "oh like me because i blablablabla", everytime i bring i don't feel ok it's oh but me me me. can't you just show empathy?
it's like i'm her best friend just because i'm "always here for her" you know, a servant, not a human with my own stuff to do.
but you know what made me angry the most? when she added "i know you are not okay i was indeed calling to ask you about that" STOP FUCKING LYING LMAOOOO. many times she does stuff lile this "i was ABOUT TO *aks about me/do smth nice for me*" and she never does, she only says this when i'm actually doing it for myself. she is kinda self centered, one day i will explode and tell her everything. many times i communicated politely and peacefully when she hurt my feelings by erasing me to only talk about her, letting me down and accuse me of fake things, not respect my time and still asks more etc. she's lucky i'm patient but why are you not treating right the only person that is always here for you? that's crazy
