Hi!!! Let me support you in your difficult situation!!! I have been in contact with people with such problems in the past and I can imagine how hard it is for you! I think you should think about relocating to a country where this is allowed.
I can imagine how hard this is for you!!! Don't lose heart!!! you'll make it!!! maybe you should get citizenship of the country where it is allowed? and then live in your own country...take legal advice...don't give up!
Don't be afraid, real friends won't leave you...that's the test of the relationship...and the family won't turn away, I'm sure. Your mom, judging by what you wrote, loves you very much. Don't lose heart and fight!!! Write here, I'll always support you!!!
Greetings!!! Glad to support you in your problem!!! Just want you to feel not alone and know that if you get dumped everyone here on the site will support you!!!! Keep your head up!
@darronkula I appreciate your support!
@hritchie I've thought about relocating and I plan to do so, though it's more of a future plan due to finances.
Hi! Don't despair! There is always a way out, the main thing is to see it!!! Especially, there are countries that help people with such peculiarities as yours!!!! So don't feel insecure and lonely.
Know that you are not alone. We all go through difficult times in our lives, and sometimes it feels like no one understands how we feel. However, remember that there are always people who are there to support you.
Strength doesn't come from doing what you can do. It comes from overcoming what you once thought was impossible. Soon, when all is well, you will look back on this period of your life and be so glad you never gave up. You wrote in the comments that you already have a relocation plan in place, you're on the right track, you know the way out....
Buddy! You can make a career out of being a girl!!! And you can't fool your mother's expectations. Think it through and go for it.
Many of them express feeling scared before revealing out the internal feelings and starting the gender transition.
This is normal and natural reaction. Fear of losing loved ones, afraid of not being accepted are thoughts running in your head. This fear represents your sense of self and ability to handle external events. This fear is rooted in your ability or lack of it to handle what may happen due to your transition. For this reason you are afraid to transition as you fear what will happen to your mother, friends and everyone around you.
First step is self acceptance. self acceptance here means satisfaction or happiness with yourself. It involves self understanding of who you are derived form realistic awareness of your strength and weakness. once u accept it then it would become easier for you to explain others.
write down what is important for you and your mental well being. if it's important can you address it and go beyond to work on it.
Therapist will help you with this. Therapy can help you gain confidence in expressing your preferred gender. You may wish to make small changes at first like going by a different name if you want.
Once you talk to your family, friends and confident about your identity then Medical treatment can be next stage. Work on your goal and make a career to earn what is required for it. This will motivate you to study and work.
Remember that wanting to be a girl is just one part of your identity. it does form a significant part of who you are but you still have other set of qualities in you that makes you uniquely you.