Your emotions resonate deeply with me from 4 years ago. I was depressed as hell because of all my failures, and there was no one to help me out of it. It’s a dark place, and even after treatment, it leaves scars. I’m in remission now, but I was on antidepressants for 2 years, and I still battle with insomnia. I advise you to ask your parents if you can see a psychiatrist or at least a school therapist. It’s best to get help as soon as possible. Don’t suffer alone!
I used to cry a lot in high school too. :( Fake friends, skipping classes due to anxiety, and then frantically trying to improve my grades. I thought I’d turn gray from all the pressure! Thanks God it’s over. I promise you’ll feel relief after you graduate! Is it the work load or your toxic peers that are bringing you down?
I’m so sorry that you lost a friend. Grief, especially the kind associated with a suicide, is intense. The death of your acquaintance is not your fault, you couldn’t have prevented it. It’s dreadful, and it will take time to heal. But you owe it to yourself to overcome this sadness and reconnect with your friends and the people you love. You say that the people you know like you. I’m sure no one is making fun of you. It’s only your perception, mirroring your depression. If you feel that these constant sad feelings are taking control over you, it’s crucial to tell someone. They’ll find ways to help you. Don’t be afraid to open up about it, like you did with us.
For how long have you been feeling these mood swings when you are crying and also laughing? Have you ever seen a school counselor?
You are a good person, hold on!
Why do you want to leave your family, dear? I’d think that your parents would be those people who love you no matter what and who can help you handle all the things that are hurting you. Are you not in close relationships with them? I know school is stressful for many kids. My oldest son hates studying (to my great dismay!) and says the only thing he enjoys is their soccer team. But school ends, sooner or later, you’ll be done with it. Please talk to someone about what you are going through! It feels like you’re overwhelmed with emotions, and you need someone to lighten your burden. You will be OK, you are valued, the world needs you. Please talk to somebody you trust!
Crying, on the whole, is not a bad thing. It helps your body release cortisol (the stress hormone), which in turn aids your brain in processing any negative emotions. I allow myself to cry every once in a while instead of hoarding my sorrows. It’s the intensity of your negative feelings that worries me. I’m afraid it’s impossible to diagnose your condition without a professional. You deserve to have the best things in life. Ask your family member to make an appointment with your GP who will then send you to a neurologist. Let doctors not frighten you. They’ll only talk to you about it and decide what remedies can help you.
Unfortunately, many teenagers are collapsing under the weight of obligations and daily worries these days. Maybe you’re worried about your exams? Or what do you mean by wanting to impress others? In any case, you are worthy just as you are. Reach out to your school counselor, they will direct you to a therapist – it’s free! The therapist will make a treatment plan for you. Trust me, it’s incredibly helpful. And if you don’t like the therapist provided by your school, you can always ask your parents to look for another one. Keep pushing. I wish you all the luck in the world!
You are exhausted. It seems like too many bad things have happened in your life all at once. I beg you to tell your mother. I don’t think she will look away from your troubles. If school is so unbearable, there is a possibility of homeschooling. You need friends, they are your support system. It will also be wonderful if you try to get back to your hobbies and daily activities that made you happy. Even when all the big things in life go to hell , the small things can really make life feel worth living.
Please don’t let treacherous thoughts consume you. Dying is never the answer! You have your whole life ahead of you, and you don’t know how drastically it will change in a month or in a year. Won’t you like to see it? The very fact that you’re here shows that you need to talk about it. I’ll always be here for you, ready to listen. Letting it all out is the first step to overcoming your depression. From there, you can get help or be prescribed certain pills that will improve your mood. This misery you are feeling may be the result of a chemical imbalance in your brain. It happens to all of us under severe stress. It’s totally curable! You only need to start your journey to healing. Do you need some advice on where to start? Can you say where you’re from?
I'm so sorry to hear you are struggling with these intense emotions and thoughts right now. It seems that you have a lot on your plate, no wonder it feels overwhelming.
However, I want to reassure you that there is treatment and help available. It doesn't have to be the end of the road for you, and even as you face these intense feelings, it's possible to overcome them. While the negative thoughts feel real, our minds sometimes distort reality, especially when we're in distress. I want to say that the fact you're acknowledging your emotions and thoughts speaks about self-awarness and it's already a very important step in the process of healing.
Please, reach out to someone you trust and talk through these feelings. I understand that it can be challenging because you might be afraid to be judged or feel like a burden. But it's okay to talk about uncomfortable feelings too, as we all go through ups and downs, and human connections are very helpful. Sometimes it's all we need to get a perspective and better understand our struggles. Try spending more time with people who you feel have a positive impact on you.
Tell your parents about what you've been going through and ask them to arrange you a meeting with a therapist. A mental health specialist can help you process these feelings, find reasons underlying it and begin the healing process. If your parents are abusive in any way or are just hard to approach with this topic, find another adult you can trust (like a relative or a teacher), who can help you talk to your parents or direct you to the support resources you need. At the very least, talk to a school counselor.
If you continue having suicidal thoughts and feel like there's no one you can talk to right now, call a suicide hotline in your country. There you can talk to someone who can help you deal with the feelings. You can also search for local support groups.
I want to share some strategies that might help you feel better:
- Express your feelings. It seems that there's a lot of sadness, so find healthy ways to process them. Write all your feelings and thoughts in a journal, for example, write poems or draw your feelings.
If there's a lot of anger, you can release the energy through physical activity: excercising, dancing or moving your body to music that fits your mood, fast walking, jogging.
- Make space in your day for gratitude. For example: each morning think of 3 things that you're greatful for. It doesn't have to be something big, it can be small joys like having a rooftop over your head or nice weather. Before bed, think of 3 good things that happened during the day. Perhaps, you had a good meal, got a good grade, or watched something nice. For a better effect, write these things down. At first, it can be hard to notice anything positive, but with time it becomes easier. Try this for a month, and see how it affects your mood.
- If you find yourself participating less in pleasurable activities, it can be helpful to add more of them in your weekly routines. You might not feel a lot of motivation at first, but as you start doing it, you may notice your mood lifting. Some types of activities (like exercise) release brain hormones that help us feep better. Activities also distract us from negative thoughts and give us an opportunity to feel joy and success. Ask yourself, what it is that you like doing, or that you liked doing in the past - like dancing, creating art, going for a walk, reading a nice book, cooking - and start doing them regularly.
Perhaps, you can also join some community like a book or movie club, or take after-school classes (e.g. music, language learning), where you can do something enjoyable and also interact with others. Volunteering can be a good idea as well, as doing something for others help us feel connected and satisfied by knowing we are making a difference.
Remember that you are so much more than these feelings of anger, stress, sadness, negative thoughts and it's possible to have control over them. With support and time, you can overcome this rocky period.
It is normal to struggle with difficult emotions from time to time. However, when you are in that low place like in a dark end of tunnel with no way to reach light, you start finding yourself hating life then it could be deeper sense of mental health struggles. It is essential to reach out for help and start making positive changes. kindly reach a therapist as it could be lot of pent up emotions which you need to deal with.
Along with the help of the therapist there are various other coping strategies to help you :
you need to question yourself:
# why are you feeling anxious and stressed? can you write down what situations happened in the past which makes you feel like that?
# why do you want to hurt the guys? did they ever tease you or bully you?
# why do you say i hate my face? is this your feeling then why? or has someone told you something ? if yes then why are you giving that person's word that much important?
# write down all the reasons why do you want to cry? can you address those reasons?
# When you say you are bad? write down why do you feel this? analyse does this thought have any reality to it or its just your assumptions in your head? look at the logicalness and validity in the statement.
# when you say i wish i could have helped the person who had committed suicide. then why are you not helping yourself? why are you not being compassionate towards you?
# how do you think world will be better if you are gone?
you really need to answer all this questions to just see if these thoughts are just thoughts ruminating in your head or it is because of the events in the past which made you feel like that. only if you know where these thoughts have stemmed from you will be able to help yourself out. Your life is precious and your family needs you.