My depression and stress.

I know I’m depressed I’m younger than 16 but I know I am. I hate my life I hate my face I try to impress people but every time I enter school I cry. I cry and cry and cry it’s the only thing I do. People use me. Someone I know committed suicife yesterday I feel like crap I could have helped them. I feel like I’m a bad person and this world would be better if I was gone. I can’t leave my family can I? I also don’t want to go to hell as killing yoirself is a sin. But I don’t want to be here anymore? That’s why I want to die. My anxiety my stress is too much. I laugh all the time but no one knows what’s going on? I don’t really have friends people I know like me but I struggle to talk and find that I ruin peoples moods because I’m always angry or sad. I’m probably that girl people make fun of. Some guys in my school I’ve thought about wanting to hurt them so bad. The way they hurt me I want to destroy them. But no. I’m good to the one who is bad to me. Thank you for reading