yo, im Hana. im 27 y.o and i live in the midwest united states.
its been a couple years now that ive been diagnosed with HPV 16&18, aka the worst strains of HPV you can have and the leading cause of cervical cancer.
i have had 2 surgeries to remove precancerous cells and now it looks like im going to have another one because the precancer cells are still on my cervix.
recovery from a LEEP procedure (where they remove part of your cervix that is infected with the precancer) is awful and painful and stressful.
i have no caring women in my life to talk to about this, other than my fiancé’s mother.
the worst part is, the more times i have to have a cervical LEEP surgery, the more it puts me at risk of 2nd trimester miscarriages and painful menstrual periods. that is, if i dont need to get a hysterectomy at some point.
im 20-goddamn-7 and my fiancé has 2 kiddos but i wanted to have one myself. my own baby. and the chance might be taken away from me before i can even think about it.
recovering from the surgeries, as well as trying to keep my head on straight and make sure i’m managing my gastrointestinal issues as well (cuz i have an ulcer and esophagitis..)
its really fresh right now because every time they give me a pelvic exam, i cry. im sick of this, im sick of crying and hurting and trying to put on a brave face.
when i am so so scared of what the end result might be and meanwhile making sure my fiancé is okay cuz hes going through a depressive episode as well.
its a ton going on.
i have an appointment in a couple of hours with my OBGYN (hes wonderful!) about what our next steps are. im so nervous and i just want to stay in bed for the next week..
Turns out it's not so bad to be hyperactive!!! You can do a lot of things!!! Why is it a disease?! Although it must be hard to be active all the time...!
Reading you definitely makes me want to get your disease...... Hyperactivity. I get it. I've become a lazy hamster. I don't know how to get myself to do a lot of things. I admire you, share your experience, how you got sick.
Oh! What a great diagnosis!!! I want to be so active too!!! I'll even try to learn from you!!!! You get plenty of rest and take care of yourself.
Great adjustment with ADHD!!! my recognition, my admiration!!! write as much as you can about yourself, maybe others won't worry so much about having ADHD.
Awesome!!! I didn't realize there could be a positive effect from something like this.... ADHD!!! You're doing great for adapting so well!!!! I'm sure you did well in school!!!!
I would like to express my sincere admiration for you. Your amazing ability to overcome challenges and achieve great results inspires me. You are not only talented, but also a true leader.
It’s awesome to hear you’ve figured out how to use your differences to your advantage! My sister was recently diagnosed with ADHD and she really struggles to get things done, unfortunately.