Please don’t say you are worthless. 🙏 You mean a lot to your close people. You are here for a purpose, and even this post will make someone’s life better because they’ll know they’re not alone in their sadness. Look on the bright side: you never risk being surrounded by mean, shallow friends. You can strive only for deep, meaningful connections with those who will accept you for who you are.
Very true! My brother has borderline personality disorder, and over the years many of his friends have distanced themselves from him, despite the fact he is medicated. I’m sorry to admit that the majority of people with various mental issues face this reality. Try to be an optimist and believe that the right people will come into your life anyway.
People are frightened of the things they don’t fully understand. And there’s no chance that bullies and nasty people will ever disappear from planet Earth, so all you can do is gather your strength and not be bothered by them. My method is to always be kind and respectful to all people, regardless of their diagnoses or life circumstances. Through my attitude, I prove that any stereotypes or stigmas are generally wrong. If some people remain immune to common sense, then they don’t deserve my respect in the first place. You seem to be a very nice person, you are worthy of good experiences, and I’m sure you’ll have them!
@There-Is-Hope Thank you. Wish I could make it my purpose in life to befriend and care for those suffering from similar mental conditions. I’d like to be able to ease their minds and show them not all is lost. If only I myself could feel like this now...
I’ve always known that people with schizophrenia are not dangerous. They’re more likely to hurt themselves than others. And I’m afraid you are torturing yourself with these negative thoughts. You mention that your friends didn’t even notice any changes in you. They are still with you. You’ll win people’s hearts by being you, and those to whom you can’t get through will simply pass by and not trouble you. Yet in order to have wholesome connections, we need to feel whole. It’s a constant work in progress, and it’s important not to give up. I hope you find your peace!
I had a tragic episode when I revealed my diagnosis (BPD) to my ex-boyfriend, and he dumped me for it. I can very much relate to your fears. And here’s what I can say: you must not let insensitive and uneducated morons ruin your future! Those who truly belong in your future will make you feel accepted and understood. I wouldn’t share my diagnosis with everyone, it’s simply a private matter. However, I refuse to be weak. I can have a normal life. And so can you! You will love and be loved, 21 is such a lovely age. Be proud of your uniqueness. If anyone deserves miracles – it’s you!
Have you watched A Beautiful Mind? A movie about the mathematician John Nash, who also had schizophrenia. It's one of the most touching movies I have seen! And think of all the other incredible minds who (might) have had schizophrenia: Vincent van Gogh, Jack Kerouac, Virginia Woolf… The list goes on. Your future is in your hands. You can be whoever you want. Nothing can really stop you from becoming an outstanding individual except yourself. Be that friend you want others to be for yourself. Don’t let depressive moods get you down.
~ sending you a digital hug!
Most people with schizophrenia get better over time and not worse. Treatment options are improving all the time and there are plenty of things you can do to manage this. With right treatment, support, medication if required, therapy and self help you can manage it, function independently and lead a fulfilling, rewarding life.
second personality does not mean you have schizophrenia. you need to consult another therapist to check with all your symptoms as people with DID experience multiple identities while those with schizophrenia do not. I do not have an understand of your case history and symptoms so it would be better you consult another clinical psychologist or therapist.
Generally with schizophrenia friends or family member do know something is wrong without knowing exactly what. You may seem unmotivated, emotionless like inability to cry or express joy or inappropriate laughter. you may start to isolate yourself, neglect your appearance, say peculiar things and show a general indifference to life. You may abandon your hobbies, your performance at school may deteriorate.