I felt this way too, and told myself I’m going to finally beat it this year! I’m not going to surrender to my compulsions any longer. We’ve got this! We can do it.
Every little step is a win. You should be proud of yourself! I took an antidepressant for a year, and I felt it didn’t influence my deeply rooted obsessions; it only masked them, so to speak, made them less intrusive. So I dropped the antidepressant, and am trying to get rid of my OCD once and for all by resisting the compulsions in any way I can. It’s scary and it’s a fight every day, but I’m doing what’s in my power...
It does get better! I learned over the years that giving in to my anxious thoughts is not so hard, when I know I can then sit and do nothing until they leave me alone. As long as I don’t comply with my habits of washing my hands every two hours or counting my actions (I’m obsessed with the holy three number and that doing everything three times protects me from failure…), as long as I can make myself feel uncomfortable and just ride the wave for a little bit until it passes, I believe I’m doing fine. It’s hard, but it’s the only way. Best of luck with your progress!
Fight it with all you’ve got: therapy, medications, awareness. I’ve been doing this for the past 2 months, and I haven’t written anything OCD-related in my journal for two weeks now. Do what you can, it’s not all gone in one day, but it becomes milder and, hopefully, may eventually go away forever.
That's the spirit! I'm sending you the superpowers to keep up the small wins. Your post gives hope that it can be managed without meds 😉
I have had similar OCD experiences. Not the same themes (except death fears about car crashes), what’s similar is that my OCD seems to mutate over the years and manifests itself differently. It’s disheartening, makes me feel absolutely helpless. So I very much understand the impact of it all.
Good job! Keep up sitting on that couch, do not let your contamination thoughts get the best of you. The victories are never linear, I’ve gotten used to the idea that setbacks are inevitable, they’re part of the process. But I’m pretty sure that OCD can be cured in the long run. Be patient with yourself, and do not get upset over regressions. Practice and consistency, and lots of exposure to fears. Best of luck!
The whole point of treating OCD is having those small victories. The battle never really ends. There’s no cure, the purpose is to make it so that your thoughts do not have an influence on you. Congrats on your victories, and keep taking new steps forward!
Overcoming OCD is a gradual process and every small victory deserves celebration. It is only these series of small wins on a daily basis that helps you in the process of recovery. It is accumulation of these small wins that gives you the result you need. These small wins also teach you that there is no overnight solutions, you instill patience within you, you start seeing the meaning of small and everyday efforts. Keep continuing to focus on daily little efforts you put in. It will all add up someday. And that wait for someday is the hope we need. At the end of the day this win gives confidence to other who are struggling so continue to motivate others as well.