Hi I'm, well I can't tell my name, but I'm thirteen (almost) and I have been struggling a lot since I hit puberty a couple years ago. I didn't even know what it was at first but I started to learn more n more about mental health problems, therapy (u see I'm an Indian so I never rlly knew what therapy was) body image issues and a lot more. I started watching a lotta positive videos and tried so hard to motivate myself to become like them then I stopped cos I felt like it was just a waste of time but now I finally feel a little more comfortable in my body. in the beginning when I started getting panic attacks (cos I was a dumbass n didn't know what was happening to me) I would go to my mom wouldn't rlly tell her the correct reason but ask her to comfort me. It worked kinda cos at that time I didn't rlly know what I needed but she was always telling me it was my fault n I shud be more flexible and adjusting n I get that it'll help me in the future but right now it's tooo much preparing myself for the future that I can't enjoy my present. I rarely stand up for myself so.... what I need is someone to confide it not someone who's constantly correcting me. nowadays I still try to talk to my mom but uh it's kinda rough. N well whenever she's in the room n I ask her to go out cos I wanna change she asks me I'm ur mom it's ok n then yesterday I finally told her that ur too judgemental in a funny way but she kinda kinda took it in the harsh way. And she used to even cry to me about her problems n how much of one I am to her and I didn't realise how fucking much that hurt me so now if she cries to me I just kinda ignore her unlike past me who used to drown myself in guilt. A couple months ago life was feeling like I was thriving but now it isn't bad but it's not good either it's like I'm barely surviving but I gotta keep swimming cos the shores still very far. it's still the beginning of what I think is gonna be a very long journey but I feel like I'm hitting a milestone now. Cos like I feel a Lil more comfy in my body n it makes me soooo happy n I wanna celebrate but I can't cos what I want to celebrate is always gonna stay a desire. I see so many yt'ers n they talk about their teenage n how they were miserable n then how they r thriving now. Yes it's inspiring for many people but for people like me we rlly need ppl who we can rlly relate to who barely have happiness in their lives. U see I have an aunt n she the most toxic fucking bitch I have ever known n will ever know...n I fucking live with her. So happiness is rare n only found with friends which is a whole another topic for tomorrow also thank you app for letting me have someone or rather something to actually share stuff to

I've always been determined to succeed, starting from a young age. I excelled in school, consistently earning top grades until my undergraduate studies. Along the way, I pursued singing, participated in quizzes, and now I hit the gym daily, competing in weightlifting and powerlifting events. I also enjoy writing short stories — it's a passion of mine. While I may not be the most outgoing person, I take pride in my physical strength as a woman. Independence is a quality that defines me.

However, my mental health took a turn for the worse in 10th grade. The pressure from school and my parents became overwhelming, and I began to feel like a failure. At 16, I started struggling with severe and persistent depression, which has persisted into my 20s. I'm currently undergoing psychiatric treatment to manage my condition. I had attempted suicide twice, once by injecting sanitizer and recently overdosing on migraine meds. However, I sought help, and now I'm taking 3 meds per day. I don't want to die, although it may seem otherwise. I want a good life, but when I see I'm failing to make that life, I become suicidal. I need to stay alive until I succeed. My psychiatrist is helping me, but I still feel like I'm stuck. I also had anger issues when I didn't take meds. Now I don't have them, but as I've had them since my childhood, my mind feels empty, like something is missing. I'm pursuing a double degree in Chemistry and Education, and my life is so chaotic. I wake up at 5, go to the gym at 6 am, come back at 7:30, go to classes at 8:40 am, live in a dorm at my university, and have classes till 5:30 pm. It's too hectic. I'm currently on vacation, and my psychiatrist told me to slow down, but I'm struggling to do so. I fear for the future because I need a stable and high-income job too.

What do you think? Has anyone experienced anything similar to what I'm going through? If yes, please share your experience. If not, please offer me some advice.

Hi I am preparing for my competitive exams this is my last chance they force me for marriage but i am struggling to get mark because I need to save my relationship , I am In relationship for more than 7 years he is always be with me but I need to save my relationship means I need to get rank in exam , I struggling for my exam, and parents stress everything make me feeling suffocating so I started mastubating but know I am this last whole month I mastubate daily now this feel me guilty about me and my boyfriend he is loving me without knowing anything all this run in my mind and now I am getting bad dreams everyone around me is hate me and thismake me feel down and hopeless I don't know what to do and how to stop this?

I had been struggling for a while but on the 14th November I had a horrible night shift that was very very busy. I felt awful handing over to the day management and was even crying. Just over an hour into being at home and my nights manager sends me a message in the group chat demanding to know why so much work was left undone. I'd never felt so defeated, so let down by myself and felt like a massive failure. Depression and anxiety come with autism but nothing could prepare me for the crushing pain and sadness I felt that Friday morning. I have learn confrontation isn't something you can train yourself at being better at coping with. I have learnt I struggle more than I let myself realise and that the world we live in is so isolating and negative. I've had to take time off work because constant anxiety is making my whole body shake all day. I feel lost yet just wanting to go back to work just to feel useful some how. I'm a people pleaser but also notice it means I get walked all over.