I realize all my life I have been single a good portion of my life and can’t find the right one. I chase and get disappointed with most are just sex, one night stands or friends with benefits. Long distance relationships I found just sex when responsive most. What I want is trust, love, commitment and communication, my longest physical relationship was toxic and was unhappy not caring enough when I put it in my all. What I want is a relationship turn into marriage and start a family due my family having addictions and haven’t talk in years best I stay away. I want family connection and have that back. I chase and get disappointed, feel codependent on the other for communication only and built a relationship takes time but goes to sex all the time I cut it off. I want to love and be loved. Never found it and gets very lonely I lm on autopilot not living life, I say to myself what’s wrong with me why can’t I find the right one finally be happy, a friend said time to accept its not in the cards for u just focus on yourself. U will be alot happy and if the right one comes along right time happen or not. Once I meet someone new I put it in my all and it’s all I think about like it’s a God to me, cause I don’t wanna be lonely anymore. It’s lets me to toxic person talking to exes online, dating apps and going out at bars. I self neglect myself health, mental wise, I don’t know if it’s my short attention span or I’m lazy do the work to love myself I can’t stick to it only when get crushed by a guy I self care for little while then loneliness comes in crushed everything go gd k to toxic behaviour and in a struck repeated cycle. His do I get help for this? I don’t want to be codependent on others anymore . I just wanna live life again should I accept I never find the right one for me

This is my third relationship and whatever he's good i feel good but the problem is he Always gets mad at me for tiniest things and sometimes i understand and keep it down but later when i voice my feelings, he is like so what? it's me who's shouting at you ,can't you even take that? and he just disrespects me like that and i feel like talking to no one(family and friends) and whenever we get into a fight it's me who always have to saysorry and beg no matter how much am hurt. it's like there are double rules, i can't do something that he can do and when I'm with him I'm always anxious thinking that he might get mad if i do this or say this, he says he's always irritated because of me even with the slightest things.

he blames me wherever we fight until we conclude "it's all my mistake " even though i didn't do anything to deserve that always feel lonely and worthless but i dont want to leave him because when i started this relationship i thought him or nothing but now my heart aches so much

I am in the process of severing my relationship with my group of friends. They have been extremely toxic and mean to me. They think it's funny to insult and ridicule me, making jokes about my appearance and what I wear.

I can no longer tolerate their behavior. They never invite me anywhere and make plans in front of me, just to rub it in my face. While they may find it amusing, their jokes often go too far and are meant to hurt me. The insults they throw at me are not just playful teasing, but are meant to cause me real pain. They claim that I don't have any friends besides them and that I will never find a girlfriend.

This kind of bullying is taking a toll on me. I am scared to go to school and all I can think about during the day and in class is the bullying.I am struggling and I don't know what to do. I am feeling sad and exhausted.

My home life is already difficult, and now I have to face bullying at school too. It's just too much to bear. Can someone please help me?

I've been ditched out of a relationship recently, one year when we were near n together, everything seemed good, but I had become a lot possessive and kinda toxic in between because i have been cheated twice before, n so I don't have a good mental state. I tried to explain this to him but at last he just said he doesn't feel anything because am being so paranoid. N am shattered again because I really thought this would work out, but it didn't, all on a sudden he just withdrew saying that he had been feeling this from a long time but he never expressed it before, I feel I was just a time pass for him now n that he was never serious about us. He never took stand for me verbally in front of the friend's group, though his actions before were for me in my favour, but sometimes u just want to listen when someone takes a stand for you...that never happened... But even though he is friendly with all other people now more of girls... Idk what i must do to overcome this... I can't be crying n suffering like this a lot, it's taking tolls on my mental, physical and emotional health, but there's nothing am able to do or decide now...even if I decide something, it'll be for sometime n then it'll change. My emotions are taking over me. Moreover there is no one i can trust here for this, everyone is just busy in their works n almost everyone has a double faced nature which is suffocating me more. Idk what will or what would help me come out of it... But i really want to be fine n happy like I used to be. I've lost all hopes in being together with someone anymore...n I've become more paranoid now...