2 years ago I was navigating life on autopilot. I was steering with no real sense of direction or genuine care. I was drinking myself to death for fun and was complicit in what could've been changed with hard work and effort. But it was unknowingly meeting and briefly dating a covert narcissist that encouraged me to re-evaluate myself and get my shit together.
He traumatised me so badly it un-traumatised me. I cut liquor cold turkey, sought out professional help, started volunteering, joined support workshops, picked up boxing and began actively exercising. Now, I'm 2 years sober and no longer surviving but actually LIVING. I'm alive, present and thriving. I'm still ironing out a few creases but I'm sincerely happy to have all that I do while still working for what I want.
Next to being 2 years sober, November 14th will make 5 years last I self harmed. Sobriety and professional help has saved my life, next to volunteering and cultivating a healthier support system for myself. My skin is clear, my scars are fading, and I overall feel as good as I can for the situations I’m tackling. These past 2 years have had their ups and downs but 2024 is one of the best years of my life.
I’ve reached many milestones, achieved personal goals, met awesome people, and so much more. I’m thankful for everything this year has brought me, good and bad. I know that 2025 will be even better and I’m excited to ensure that for myself.
That’s why I’m sending so much love and strength to anyone who’s struggling right now. Whether you’re battling addiction, health complications, familial issues, trauma or anything in between, I want you to know that it does get better and you’re not alone. I know things feel impossible in the moment but please give yourself grace and know that recovery isn’t linear.
Try not to compare yourself to others with support systems and acknowledge that your best is enough. Understand that not all of your hardships aren’t your fault. It’s hard I know and I’m certain you’re tired, but you’ll power through. I hope that the rest of this year and next is good to you. 🎈
