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[User deleted]
1y ago

4 yrs being diagnosed with bipolar

Hi

I know even if I or those in this journey write a thousand post it won't be enough to share the whole experience and ongoing journey but here i am trying to find people who can truly understand.

So I am 20 now . So after few years of self harming and thinking about my childhood abuse and experiencing that again when I was 16 i thought I won't die like this yes I will one day but not before giving back to my parents. Fast forward to my first psychiatrist he diagnosed me with major depressive disorder and i experienced hallucinations like those things inside my head or things i could feel now became real and I got worst then i had to drop out for a year. Few mons after the new doctor said it's bipolar just take antidepressants and lithium you would be fine well guess what I wasn't getting better I was numb and emotionally blocked then few mons after they also said just continue your medications it's normal but I felt horrible like it was better to feel than be numb after that i went to study outside my hometown and got in touch with the best doctor of my life she help me till last year I was constantly changing meds but it worked and then my system crashed my body couldn't take any more of lithium or its substitute I had bad tremors so I got scared cause i was never good in anything else than studies cause I never invested time on anything else so I was afraid of not being able to hold my pen like sure after 10th I never studied like I used too or couldn't but that is my only option of a better future I don't wanna be a housewife so i stopped my meds I am preparing for neet medical entrance exam in India this is the first year I could study yes I have fallouts days i feel unproductive days i wanna scroll my phone whole day days but I am trying even if it is only one step I am not afraid of failure anymore and my lord is with me helping me take it.

Sorry for making it so long and thank you for reading it

. But I am proud for even if it is the first step .


Specialist answer
Dr. Elisabeth Jones
1y
Specialist

Hello!

First of all, it is important to consult a psychiatrist once again and make sure that the diagnosis and treatment are prescribed correctly. You’d better consult 1-2 more doctors and collect the opinion of several specialists. Unfortunately, in medicine and psychiatry there are often situations when the diagnosis is incorrect. Therefore, it is better to double-check everything.

In psychological terms, you need to find support within yourself. Now you are 20 years old, you have already lived somehow, that means you already have a lot of resources to cope with difficulties. In order for you to be able to support yourself in difficult situations, I suggest that you do one exercise. It’s called “Chest”.

Your task is to go on a journey through your inner world and find many treasures there. Treasures are your strengths, experience of overcoming failures, personal qualities, etc. You need to put all these treasures in a symbolic inner chest you can refer to at any time.

Take a sheet of paper and a pen. Now you have to make some lists. It’s better to start each list on a new sheet (note that each list must have at least five items).

Write down the answers to the following questions:

1) Your strengths.

2) Your successes and achievements (in all spheres of life).

3) What are you proud of?

4) Describe the experience of overcoming your fears.

5) What kind words have people ever said to you?

6) What can you praise yourself for?

7) What are you proud of?

When you’re done, reread the answers, mentally putting each item into a symbolic chest. You can put the sheets into an envelope in a safe place only you know about.

The next time you need support, ask yourself the question: “What “treasure” (resource) do I need now?” Then mentally take it out of the chest and use it.

Trust me, you already have all the necessary resources in order to overcome the fear of failure. You just need to take an “inventory” and accustom yourself to use your resources in situations of fear.

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stefan
1y

The sense of respect and pride I have for you being a random stranger

The way you're holding up and winning over, the way you're not forgetting to love yourself on your low days is impeccable

We all are proud of your journey and we believe you'll keep going and win over whatever you wish, we're here to boost your moral always

stand strong queen

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bubu
1y

That is incredibly great honey, it's just so relieving to see people being aware about their health enough, to be aware about loving themselves in the highs and the lows, I have seen a lot shattering inside themselves but I feel great to witness a baddie like you woman, go get it, I hope you keep growing and getting better, and don't worry you'll be what you wish to be, you'll ace that exam, just keep believing in yourself like always


More power to you ♥

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