I feel so depressed and so alone. My heart feels so heavy and I’m so hurt.

To begin, I must say that I identify as a femboy. So, several years ago, I developed an interest in feminine clothes an items. Eventually, I began to share images of myself online. Although some people were mean, most of feedback was positive. I realized how effortless it is for me to receive this attention. As an unappealing male, the positive feedback only intensified my wish to continue with the femboy lifestyle. But recently, I have been feeling like a failure as both a man and a "girl."

I am battling mild depression and my self-esteem is extremely low. Additionally, I am experiencing an existential crisis. I cannot seem to find meaning in anything anymore. I just go to work, watch Netflix and dress up as a girl. However, I find these activities monotonous and meaningless. I lack the motivation and knowledge necessary to make any changes in my life. Hope you can help me here.

im stucked in my life no aims. no motivation to live im so lonely and depressed i feel like crying out loud i dont know what to do i have no genuine friends im left alone

I am going crazy, I am not able to understand what I am doing, I am crying, I am not sleeping at night, I feel very lonely, I am depressed, I have changed a lot.