Depression or Paranoid Schezophrenia

Hi,

I am Sultan from Kabul, Afghanistan. I am 46 years old and I am IT Specialist

My story of mental sickness starts from MIRC chat in year 2000 when I was chatting in chatting rooms. everything was going normal but slowly I notice that a group people possibley 3 were interested in my personal life and i felt as if am chased by them. Later the circle of involved people got bigger and I felt as if I am chased in daily life in my work place and even I thought that my relatives, friends and family members are with them. at that moment the symptom of severe depression and anxious thoughs began to appear and I was obssessivly thinking about the internet and chat my interest and joy in daily life activity became zero at the begining My thoughts was not much hostile and l thought people at chat room are my friends and they may want to make frienship but slowly slowly I got angry at them and at other people who though were with them I thought I am very impotant person( maybe a philosopher or saint). when things got worse my family took me to psychiatrist and they prescribed my tofranil and Stelazine later my prescription was changed to Respiridone 2x2mg and escitalopram 20 mg. I didn't have any hallucinations but I had paranoid delusions. By some psychiatrists my illness was diagnosed as Paranoid Schezophrenia but some other diagnosed it as psychtic depression. I am still using the medicine but since I stared respiridone it has controlled the delusion but has increased my aniexty and can't fall asleep easily and normally it took 2 or more hours to fall asleep after I go to bed. This year my mode has improved a little bit but not to big extent. My sleep is not normal and fatigue is hurting me and affect my daily and work life, low self esteem , lack motivation, foggy mind and poor decision making and anxiety and stress is major symptom at the moment. Please kindly help.

Sultan