Finally found myself back....

Being from a broken home I believed everything that was happening at home was because of me like if I wasn't born my parents life would have been way different.Till some days back I hated myself so much that I thought what's the point of living such a pathetic life. In 28 yrs I never understood what happiness and peace was because more than ups I only witnessed down's in life that lead me to believe that I am a complete failure, because of me my family couldnt witness good days .For years I had been in trauma ,not being able to tell anyone what I was going through and how I was feeling , thinking no one would ever understand and I will be stuck here life long... Exactly a month back I realised I can't take it anymore leading to severe anxiety and depression.For some days I took therapy felt a little better but as I had to take break for months from work I couldn't afford therapy,had no option so decided to actually experience life once.I went through the root cause of why I felt the way I did realized it was just my thoughts and situations at home which made me believe so ...I journaled,cried for days, accepted all the emotions associated with it , opened all the wounds, dressed them realised they were just wrong beliefs which had nothing to do with me,forgave myself and my loved ones and healing gracefully.I have finally accepted everything and started loving myself...just feeling on top of the world.I thank God for letting me go through this and making me realise how beautiful I am and life is .So my readers I do understand what you are going through its tough but never lose hope till u find the way out through this tunnel... no one is alone... you all are loved and blessed with the gift of life..utilize it to the fullest and never let your thoughts make you believe that they are fact....take that power away from them and give it back to u...Hope it inspires you to smile always ,never give up live your life to the fullest and thanks for the support...