I've been in therapy for 4 years now, and I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever truly get better. I've tried so many different techniques and approaches, but it feels like I'm just going in circles. Don't get me wrong, I've made some progress, but is this as good as it gets?
I've done talk therapy, CBT, mindfulness, even tried some alternative stuff like art therapy. Some days I feel great, like I'm finally getting somewhere. But then something happens, and I'm right back where I started
I keep hearing people say, "Healing isn't linear," but how long is this roller coaster supposed to last? I'm tired of the ups and downs. I want to feel stable, to feel like myself again. Or maybe to discover a new, better version of myself
My therapist tells me to be patient, that healing takes time. But four years feels like a long time already. Am I doing something wrong? Should I be trying harder? Or maybe I need to try something completely different?
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever feel truly "healed." What does that even mean? Will I wake up one day and suddenly feel different? Or is it more like a slow change that I might not even notice?
I'm not giving up, but I'm tired. Tired of working so hard and not seeing the results I want. Tired of hoping things will get better, only to be disappointed.
I guess what I'm really trying to ask is: how do I really truly heal? And when will I know Im there?
