All my life people used me. I have to act nice, polite, sincere and serving even if bothers me or hurt me but the moment I express myself or show any emotion reflecting it suddenly I am awful, impolite, mean, a person who is never happy in others happiness. If those person are any stranger or someone with not much importance in life it may have not hurt me but even my family is one of those All my life people used me. I have to act nice, polite, sincere and serving even if bothers me or hurt me but the moment I express myself or show any emotion reflecting it suddenly I am awful, impolite, mean, a person who is never happy in others happiness. If those person are any stranger or someone with not much importance in life it may have not hurt me but even my family is one of those. I really try hard to make me happy but sometimes I just couldn't. I couldn't talk to anybody not even with my mother because whenever I tell her about anything that bothers me she made me target of her anger, taunting, beratement for hours or even days. After that she will tell me to stop feeling my emotions at all and act anything is wrong or discomforting all the time. I had keep all my emotions hidden inside. This makes me sad and anxious. I get angry every easily specially with my mother. These tied up emotions are hard to handle. I cry all day and night even when problem is small but it just hit me hard and all my problem start to encircle me. I am not able to sleep all night. Please help me I don't know what to do

I don't know what's going on. Hi everyone, I'm 18 and I'm a lesbian. When I was a kid I liked guys, but then around 13-14 when I found out that you can like girls, I felt like I liked them more...? (so I think I might have daddy issues or something like that, so. I used to kind of like guys, but I really like their attention to this day. Like, "I'm in a relationship with a girl, but if this guy gives me attention that would be cool! I like to be the center of attention!" I don't think I'm bi because I can't imagine having sex with a guy or being in a relationship. I feel comfortable to be with a girl and I would like to live my life with her, I like to get attention from a girl, kisses, etc... now let's get to the problem. when I realized that I am not hetero, in my country everything was more or less fine with same-sex relationships...how? nobody cared about it. I was in a long distance relationship with a girl for 2 years and I loved her and she kind of loved me too. as I realized after the breakup, our relationship was not healthy at all. She lied to me, she ignored me a lot, she seemed to love me but sometimes she could just get offended. she lied about everything, about being raped by a guy, about the people she was dating, she said her parents beat her up, etc. I was a fool and really believed it all (although I had my doubts and they were justified). eventually she started to ignore me a lot saying "that's it, we're breaking up". one time we had a political fight and she wanted to break up with me, but she kind of gave me a second chance. I didn't know she was seeing someone else at the time...as time went on, I experienced the same insults from her friends. And when I said, "Don't hang out with that person, they talk shit about me, I don't like it, but it's your choice. I didn't push too hard but it was in this context approximately (before that she insisted that I stop communicating with my friend or she would leave me, I had to do it) another situation happened: she had a friend who lived next door to her and they didn't communicate live but often texted each other. My ex liked to make herself cool and pretend that she was experienced in sex. At the time I was a virgin and did not really talk about sex with her, I was not really comfortable, but something I trusted her. and once my account in the app was blocked and I asked her for a while, she said "no problem" and in the dialog with this guy I accidentally saw "My girlfriend is such a slut, she does fisting". I was shocked. I had never done that in my life...I cried for a long time after that, because I felt uncomfortable and like I was humiliated. Also there was something like "my girlfriend has big tits, like two planets" this was also unpleasant for me, especially the fact that she tells this to a guy I don't even know. after a few months she started to ignore me hard, just write rarely, I could write to her she sits online, but does not answer, just reads. it drove me to tears and hysterics..I thought that everything will be fine, but I thought that everything will be fine. but when we were on the call and I was discussing our future like "oh, it would be cool if we got a kitten" it was at this point that she said "I want to break up with you" (I think it's very nasty of her to do that at this point) I started crying, begging her, etc...but she just told me to fuck off and disconnected. Then I texted her "can we be friends?" she said no and I accepted it...But the most disgusting thing was that when I was crying and suffering she just texted me "I'll think about it till morning and tell you my decision" I was broken and cried all night, hoping that in the morning she would say it's ok etc...She woke up and texted me "I'm blocking you, bye! "After a few days I found out that she had cheated on me. she immediately started dating a girl the day we were separated. and that girl turned out to be a friend who humiliated and insulted me..hmmm so there you go! now I have a new girlfriend who loves me to bits and treats me well and with respect.

But the problem is that after our breakup my country passed a law banning "LGBT" now if you are gay or lesbian you can go to jail...for 12 years. I'm really scared to write this now a little bit...in case they find out. but now I want to go to the main problem.(I'm very anxious, I suffer from overthinking and bad thoughts) At some point after the ban and distance with the girl, I started to feel like I'm attracted to guys...(I never dated a guy and all my 3 ex were girls)it's like my body makes me love them. I'm just looking at an almost at every guy and get a very weird feeling in my belly..I thought, "Okay, if you're bi, it's okay, don't worry about it," but it got worse at some point, like I started reacting to any guy, or to their voice like it was supposed to make me I don't know into him. I pushed those thoughts away. I also want to add that my mother doesn't know about my orientation and I often hear "such a nice guy,tall,handsome,cute,sucker" and it makes me feel even worse>_< I realize that if I react to all guys this way it could be anxiety and fear of falling in love with a guy. Help me please. What could it be? How to treat it? i really need your opinion, maybe someone has faced this before!

I'm a mom of two, and I have a lot of problems every day. The main problem is that my children are growing up without a father. Everyone says it's bad. But what am I gonna do? Their father is a loser and we're separated. He's kind, characterless, goes out with women and drinks alcohol. When we met him, I didn't see those traits. After we had kids, he became like that. I don't want to set a bad example for the kids. My mother says I'm wrong and the children should see their father. I started asking my ex-husband to go out with the kids. He promised, but he never showed up. My mother-in-law was so angry with him that she told my children that their father had died a long time ago. I'm in school and I don't know what to do.

I risk to sound stupid, but I think I’ve suddenly realized I feel afraid in tight spaces. I don’t know what changed. This never used to be a problem before. Maybe when I was younger, I was smaller and somehow such places didn’t seem tight? Or maybe I knew less when younger and had more optimistic views? Not sure. All I know is I can’t handle being in rooms with no exit. It’s not just a feeling of unease or feeling uncomfortable… I feel dread. My lungs begin to fail me, and I sense a rising sense of panic. The problem is I’m not talking about the obvious fears like elevators, those can be avoided by taking the stairs. Recently I’ve caught myself being anxious when I am in closed spaces with a lot of people! The first time it happened, I was in an underground nightclub with two of my friends. The place is popular, many people visit it every night. And I think I was the first person in history to almost faint shortly after we arrived there. I felt nervous the moment we descended a narrow staircase, maybe because the club was packed with people, and I don’t like such places. While my friends were having their first round of shots, my brain was calculating how fast this place would get on fire and how many people would be able to get out at once using that staircase! I convinced myself that it was the smell of cigarettes and sweat that went to my head and made me dizzy. But how can I explain that I get the shivers when my niece watches a scene where the main character finds himself inside the belly of a monster?? Me, the 25-year-old grownup, has to turn away to stop my mind from picturing myself inside that slimy bag of skin! My last straw was my panic in the theater on Saturday night that almost made my fiancée call the ambulance… I think I fear my sense of fear more than anything else now! We were sitting in the middle, with narrow rows of seats and a palpable sense of closeness to other people in front of me and behind. All my mind could think of was this crowd, and the distance to the closest exit. When the lights dimmed and the person to the right from me took his seat, I went off the rails… The urge to flee, to escape the confinement of the room was more than any desire to see the show. My fiancée said he saw the blood literally drain out of my face. What do I do now? Do I have to avoid crowded events now, and meticulously plan my routes to ensure escape?? What if I begin to fear flying? After all, it’s technically sitting with a bunch of people in a metallic box in thin air. This is crazy. 😫